Results are out~~

Ahh... based on my efforts and how I think I did for the finals and the assignments and projects, I think I should be getting grades as below:

Software Engineering: A (4.0)
Technology & World Change: B+ (3.3)
Process Blueprinting & Software Modelling: B (3.0)
Introductory Economics: C+ (2.3)

Total: 12.6
Average: 3.15

The informal grades are out though and my grades are as follows:

Software Engineering: B+ (3.3)
Technology & World Change: B (3.0)
Process Blueprinting & Software Modelling: B- (2.7)
Introductory Economics: C+ (2.3)

Total: 11.3
Average: 2.825

Although its lower than what I expected, at least its not worse! Only module I think I should be getting higher would be software engineering though, I did well for every part except the project getting a C... I need a stronger team next term =x Likewise, my group assignment 3 for PMSB is a freaking 17.57/30!

Should have studied more, scored better for the finals, I might get a better grades, now just pray the formal grades are not worse than these =x

Next term has to gambateh, jiayou more to at least get a merit overall =x

Darling, Michael, Haircut

Yesterday went over to school to help my junior with his programming but he got the timings wrong and didn't turn up =.="

Then I went to meet my darling at amk lah, haha, her mum cooked alot of vegetables for lunch and dinner lah =x Hee, but it was good to see my darling as these few days have to continue study like mad lah, stupid exams, darling must not be too sad for unable to see me for days ah!!!

Okie lah, after sending my darling off to school, I took 165 to MJ for my haircut. While walking there I saw Michael! He was one of my TLs back in Starhub, he resigned earlier than I did =P Now he didn't look as big as he was back in Starhub I'm wondering why? Haha, and his wife is damn thin somemore loh, darling! *wink wink* Chatted with him for a while before I walk towards MJ. Haha, I know he stayed at Sengkang but quite coincident to see him at hougang ave 4 here =) I wonder how the rest are doing? All the friends at Starhub are great just the company policy and operation sux to the core though hee =PP

Haha, luckily my timing very nice, go there straight away can cut le, while I was getting my hair cut, 3 more people came in for their hair cuts, I'm so lucky lah =)) Now hair shorter becomes nearter and more handsome, my darling will drools? =))

staying over at darling house

Went over to my darling's house on Sunday and watched movies the whole day! Just some old ones I didn't manage to watch due to no time.

We met and she still wanted to eat Laksa when she's still coughing!!! SUPER BU TING HUA DE HUAI NU HAI!!! Anyway, just let her eat lah, because I won't be able to see her much this week.

Then we bought DURIANS! wahahhaha, so long nvr eat, must eat lah! And i find she fits well with my mum and aunts, like to cut price so much BLEAHX! @@

She just casually asked if I wanted to stay over, and I of course said I will, compensation lah, so guilty no time for her. She complained I did not make effort and time for her!

But darling, please understand, do not make comparison from me to others, its not fair, I've never ever compared u to others before. Please compare me on how I treat you to how I treat others, you will know darling, I have tried my best to give you all my time that I could squeeze out already.

Darling, I will try my best to find more time for you, because I know you want to see me 24/7 lah ^.^

tough working days ahead

After practically slacking off so many days, finally they are dumping all the jobs and tasks over.

1st Task: Very simple, handle the application before just need to do some testing while in live server.

2nd Task: Coded by my friends, still able to comprehend, altering the codes and stuffs should take a while but should have no problem though its PHP?

3rd Task: Coded by the "expert" senior engineer of the company, it is the first time I almost fainted looking at codes, its SUPER DUPER CONFUSING can??!! objUser->Manager->test->haha->wat <-- decipher if you can! It took me quite a while to understand which files and functions are being called!! Theres no objUser.php anywhere, no sign of declaring it anywhere also! Java is so much simpler, knowing exactly which objects and functions are being used!

Tough working days ahead...

28.5/50

That's what I got for my Intro Econs mid-term. I was quite confident though? Seems like multiple choice always haunt me! I am so bad in multiple choice!

10/30 -> Multiple Choice
18.5/20 -> Essay Question

What else can I say except to the management to start abolishing the stupid multiple choice =.=

Got feeling its gona be another D or C or at most B coming up for this. HAIZ...

went to darling's house today

Ahh... stayed over at Aunt Serene's house, woke up and have breakfast with my darling lah! Haha the beancurd is so aweful though at the market =(

Then went to school for meeting, and rushed to meet my darling to go her house! First time going to my darling's house and meet her parents, so nervous!!! But it turns out her parents were not at home!

Haha, ate her dad's hor fun for lunch and went to sleep the whole afternoon, lol! When i woke up, her parents were home already lah! This ling also sleep like a pig hohoho. Den ate her dad's hotplate for dinner, man so full =DD Then continue to work on my projects with ling by my side, haha motivation to finish and i finally did!!!

Before i leave, we did something.. daring. haha. darling~~

Sorry Darling

Opening up my laptop only to see it filled with spams like porn, gamble, advertisements and such, is really angry. AVG suxor, I need a better anti-virus software that is free.

Projects, and assignments are all pilling up. Stress? No way, but its my responsibility to finish them not only for myself but for the groups as well.

Exams are looming dangerously near as well.

I admit my mood recently will not be that good, so don't cross my paths especially doing something I absolutely loath totally.

Darling, I just need your care and concern, and your understanding at most. Please understand that not I don't wanna meet you, I have my schedule to meet, I tried my best, but you never know. Actually on friday I didn't wanna meet you because totally deprived of sleep and I have so much to do still. When you asked last minute for dinner, I still did, because I really wanted to see you and I know you miss me too. =)) My plan was to actually stay in school today to finish up everything and go home with you later. *SIGH*

Whatever it is darling, still want to let you know, you are everything I wished for, just you need to know treating a bf/gf is totally different from treating friends. And stop asking if I will ever regret, told you umpteen times I won't so stop asking, it just makes me angry that you have no trust in me ever. And stop saying you regret, say it only when you mean it, it hurts to hear you saying it.

Lastly... I still have to apologise for my bad mood recently, please bear with me, darling, I love you and I know and wish we can walk far further down the road together, will you?

Am i your "Li Xiang Qing Ren"?

Searching through my heart and answering you darling:

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

Always felt the same anxiety and wants to meet up with you.

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好

^.^ Wear pretty pretty wor!!!

喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神

温柔的表情笑容里的天真

These are what darling likes about me? =))

我相信找不到有比你更好的人

I believe I can't find anyone more compatible than you anymore. "Wo you yu gan, wo xia ban pei zhi, zi xi huan ni".

你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份

99 marks, there's no perfect girl out there, though I always say you are bad and everything but darling, you are my 99 marks now.

好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人

No one, but the next highest will definitely be you.

亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等

朋友变成情人

We already have ^.^ And I'm trying my best =((

可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

I can't say standards, standards come to nothing when it comes to LOVE and relationship. Normally who you are with are someone who are not inside your standard of what you want. But I can safely assure you, you are everything I want.

Ubin trip with ling

First outing with my darling yesterday, so happy ^.^

So sorry for not waking up earlier but I'm so  so so tired, my darling is so understanding ^.^ I get to eat her hand-made sandwiches, okie to eat, but my heart is beaming with happiness for each bite that I took!

Still my habit of sleeping on transports, so i held her hand and sleep on the way and she kept complaining haha. When we reached Changi village, we went for breakfast first. SHE BULLIED ME!!! She didn't allow me to drink my COCONUT JUICE!!! Because I have a running stomach earlier so she didn't allow me but I was feeling okie le lor, and she's so stubborn and firm and don't let me touch it at all T.T NVM, I WILL FIND ONE DAY TO HAVE A FULL COCONUT TO MYSELF BLEAHX!!!

Cycled the whole day, my legs felt so tired, but I got to sleep on my darling's fleshy legs, hmm ermm.. nice nap ^.^ Then we cycled back to the jetty in the small rain, I felt it was romantic but she didn't xD 

Then we had our dinner there, a cheap seafood feast! I didn't bring enough but luckily she did, we had my favourite prawn and crab, WHEN WILL MY DARLING COOK FOR ME? =b

I piggy-backed her on the path to the jetty and gave a quick perch on her lips so she couldn't slap me xD She went all weak on her legs, I knew her heart was melting, hee, and I held her up! Darling, now you believe what I said about I'm fit and can carry and piggy-back you le bah!!!

We watched Max Payne at Tampines Mall in the night, it was such a disappointment, then we went to develop our photos, she kicked up a fuss about a small dot xD

The best part was I kissed her goodbye and she didn't slap me hohoho, darling! When will you give me your kiss wor??? @.@

I still want to go on more dates with my darling lah, conclusion. =)

P.S. stop complaining about the fats lah, we go exercise more ^.^

ling came to visit me at smu for dinner

soooooo touched worz ling... u came over to bugis area and stay there for hours after liyi left just to wait for me for dinner =))

The Indulge's food is so nice right? But I'll order steak next time lah! no photos here, ling u go upload in your own blog!

Haha, going to study my PMSB (Process Modelling and Solution Blueprinting) now after blogging, mid-term tomorrow, heard it is terrible! Preparing to fail terribly! Haha.

Your present is closely tied to my handphone le, bringing it with me all the time... I'm thinking of making something for you, something portable so you can look at it when you miss me, darling =PP

Don't miss me and cry too much these few days while I'm so busy and we can't meet, looking forward towards our date on Sunday to Ubin lah. 

P.S. thanks for the kiss =D

how to pass these few days...

To my ling, thanks for meeting up last night, I'm still so sorry for not going Bugis with you, thanks for your understanding to change to a nearer location knowing I'm so tired.

I sense your darkened face when I told you the stuffs, but like I said, I don't want to lie to you so I have to tell you the truth. What is the past was the past, so let's just work towards our future, ling... I just enjoyed your company last night, eating the waffles and ice cream after the BIG BOWL of VEGETABLES you forced me to eat xD nonetheless, I'll eat more vegetables and fruits and exercise in due time, of course resting well enough, because I know you will be worried about me.

I will be going out with my friends, maintaining the friendships and also working hard on my current projectS over the next few days, so much to do yet so little time. I know you are also very busy these few days. And we can't meet up... I seriously don't know how to pass these few days without you by my side, your chatty voice at my ears, ling, I'll miss you these few days till we meet up again... hopefully soon...

I'll call you every night though so please wait for my call, and please pick it up. I'll try to go down on Saturday to your workplace just to see you for a while even though knowing that you will be going out with your friends afterwards, but please don't stay out too late.

ling, wish you are the one...

Cant say enough thanks to liyi for bringing us together... Whether its a fortune or not, I can't say for sure now as nobody knows about the future.

Ling, just want to say I really enjoy being with you, it is nothing I've been through before. I have my "before" but you are the only one making me so happy just being with you, your chatty, your attitude, your so-called "manly", you are just so cute. I don't know, other than just the feelings, you are everything I've wished for, no others having it.

Ling, I wish, I wish you are the one... I want to spend many anniversaries ahead with you... let's just do whatever we can, time will tell, fate will come, god will decide. Getting to know you and you knowing me more each day... =))

Known Days: 19 days

Official Days: 3 days

Memorable Anniversary Date: 5th October every year

Defective Parrot

A  guy is browsing in a pet shop and sees a parrot sitting on a little  perch. It doesn't have any feet or legs. The guy says aloud, 'Jeesh, I  wonder what happened to this parrot?'   

The  parrot says, 'I was born this way. I'm a defective parrot.'  

'Holy  crap,' the guy replies. 'You actually understood and answered me!'  

'I  got every word,' says the parrot. 'I happen to be a highly intelligent  t horoughly educated bird.'  

'Oh  yeah?' the guy asks, 'Then answer this -- how do you hang onto your  perch without any feet?'  

'Well,'  the parrot says, 'this is very embarrassing but since you asked, I wrap  my weenie around this wooden bar like a little hook. You can't see it  because of my feathers.'  

'Wow,'  says the guy. 'You really can understand and speak English can't  you?'  

'Actually,  I speak both Spanish and English, and I can converse with reasonable  competence on almost any topic: politics, religion, sports, physics,  philosophy. I'm especially good at ornithology. You really ought to buy  me. I'd be a great companion.'  

The  guy looks at the $2000 price tag. 'Sorry, but I jus t can't afford  that.'  

'Pssssssst,'  says the parrot, 'I'm defective, so the truth is, nobody wants me cause  I don't have any feet. You can probably get me for $20; just make the  guy an offer!'  

The  guy offers $20 and walks out with the  parrot.  

Weeks  go by. The parrot is sensational. He has a great sense of humor, he's  interesting, he's a great pal, he understands everything, he  sympathizes, and he's insightful. The guy is delighted.  

One  day the guy comes home from work and the parrot goes, 'Psssssssssssst,'  and motions him over with one wing. 'I don't know if I should tell you  this or not, but it's about your wife and the postman.'  


'What  are you talking about?' asks the guy.  


'When  the postman delivered the mail today, your wife greeted him at the door  in a sheer black nightie.'  


'WHAT???'  the guy asks incredulously. 'THEN what happened?'  

'Well,  then the postman came into the house and lifted up her nightie and began  petting her all over,' reported the parrot.  


'NO!'  he exclaims. 'And she let him?'  


'Yes.  Then he continued taking off the nightie! , got down on his knees and  began to kiss her all over....'  


Then  the frantic guy demands, 'THEN WHAT HAPPENED?'  


'Damned  if I know. I got a hard-on and fell off my  perch!'

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If  this doesn't make you laugh, you're having a really bad day  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Test for Idiocy

B elow are four (4 ) questions and a bonus question. You have to answer them instantly. You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately . OK?

Let's find out just how clever you really are....



Ready? GO!!!



First Question:

Y ou are participating in a race. You overtake the second person. What position are you in?

 

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Answer: If you answered that you are first, then you are
absolutel! y wrong! If you overtake the second person, you take his place, so you are second!

Try not to screw up next time.
Now answer the second question,
but don't take as much time as you took for the first one, OK ?

Second Question:
I f you overtake the last person, then you are...?






 

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Answer: If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST Person?


You're not very good at this, are you?






 

Third Question:
V ery tricky arithmetic! Note: This must be done in your head only.
Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.



Take 1000 and add 40 to it.. Now add another 1000 . Now add 30 .
Add another 1000 . Now add 20 . Now add another 1000
Now add 10 . What is the total?




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Did you get 5000?

The correct answer is actually 4100.



If you don't believe it, check it with a calculator!
Today is definitely not your day, is it?
Maybe you'll get the last question right....
..Maybe.



Fourth Question:

Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini, 4. Nono. What is the ! name of the fifth daughter?




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Did you Answer Nunu?
NO! Of course it isn't.
Her name is Mary. Read the question again!



Okay, now the bonus round:

A mute person goes into a shop and wants to buy a toothbrush. By
imitating the action of brushing his teeth he successfully
expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is
done.




Next, a blind man comes into the shop who wants to buy a pair of
sunglasses; how does HE indicate what he wants?




 

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He just has to open his mouth and ask...
It's really very simple.... Like you!

strange encounters

Yesterday while coming to school for meeting, i always go to the last compartment of the train. Suddenly, the whole compartment is filled with a female voice singing an english song, very broken english, very bad singing, YET very loud. Looking around, without really seeing anyone in view, choose to ignore it.

Who knows? When alighting at Dhoby Ghaut, I saw a fat lady, i was walking behind her and there she started singing! She totally ignore everyone who looked at her. "Crazy???" was the first thing that came to mind.

When i come to school this morning, at the same compartment, came this particular same singing voice again! The whole compartment was again looking at her, though I can't catch view of her.

Unsurprisingly, when alighting at Dhoby Ghaut again, she was right in front of me! The same fat lady who sings to herself with an ugly voice and bad singing.

I'll avoid the last compartment for these few weeks, anyone, just staff from WMH, please come to take a look ya?

interesting article about men & women

just read an interesting article on the internet... seems totally reasonable... hahaha... guys take a look, gals agree on this ya?

“The Ten Most Dangerous Mistakes YOU Probably
Make With Women—
And What To Do About It...”

Here Are The Top Ten Reasons Why Men Fail With Women—And How To Make Sure YOU Avoid Every One Of These Deadly Common Mistakes...

-By David DeAngelo, Author Of “Double Your Dating”

MISTAKE #1: Being
Too Much Of A “Nice Guy”

Have you ever noticed that the really attractive women never seem to be attracted to "nice" guys?

Of course you have.

Just like me, I'm sure you've had attractive female friends that always seemed to date "jerks"... but for some reason they were never romantically interested in YOU.

What's going on here?

It's actually very simple...

Women don't base their choices of men on how "nice" a guy is. They choose the men they do because they feel a powerful GUT LEVEL ATTRACTION for them.

And guess what?

Being nice doesn't make a woman FEEL that powerful ATTRACTION.

And being NICE doesn't make a woman CHOOSE you.

I realize that this doesn't make a lot of logical sense, and it's hard to ACCEPT... but GET OVER IT.

Until you accept this FACT and begin to act on it, you'll NEVER have the success with women that you want.

MISTAKE #2: Trying To
“Convince Her To Like You"

What do most guys do when they meet a woman that they REALLY like... but she's just notinterested?

Right! They try to "convince" the woman to feel differently.

Well, I have news for you... YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW A WOMAN "FEELS" WHEN IT COMES TO ATTRACTION!

Never, ever, EVER.

You cannot CONVINCE a woman to feel differently about you with "logic and reasoning".

Think about it.

If a woman doesn't "feel it" for you, how in the world do you expect to change that FEELING by being "reasonable" with her?

But we all do it.

When a woman just isn't interested, we beg, plead, chase, and do our best to change her mind.

Bad idea. One that will never work.

MISTAKE #3: Looking To Her
For Approval Or Permission

In our desire to please women (which we mistakenly think will make them like us), us guys are always doing things to get a woman's "approval" or "permission".

Another HORRIBLE idea.

Women are NEVER attracted to the types of men who kiss up to them... EVER.

Don't get me wrong here.

You don't have to treat women BADLY for them to like you.

But if you think that treating a woman well means "always getting her approval and permission for things", think again.

You will never succeed by looking for approval. Women actually get ANNOYED at men who seek their approval.

Doubt me? Just ask any attractive woman if Wussy guys who chase her around and want her approval annoy her...

MISTAKE #4: Trying To “Buy” Her Affection With Food And Gifts

How many times have you taken a woman out to a nice dinner, bought her gifts and flowers, and had her REJECT you for someone who didn't treat her even HALF as well as you did?

If you're like me, then you've had it happen a LOT.

Well guess what?

It's only NATURAL when this happens...

That's right, I said NATURAL.

When you do these things, you send a clear message:

"I don't think you'll like me for who I am, so I'm going to try to buy your attention and affection".

Your good intentions usually come across to women as over-compensation for insecurity, and weak attempts at manipulation. That's right, I said that women see this as MANIPULATION.

MISTAKE #5: Sharing
“How You Feel” Too Early In
The Relationship With Her

Another huge and unfortunate mistake that most men make with women is sharing how they "feel" too early on.

Attractive women are rare.

And they get a LOT of attention from men.

Most men don't realize this, but attractive women are being approached in one way or another ALL THE

An attractive woman is often approached several times a DAY by men who are interested. This translate into dozens of times per week, and often HUNDREDS of times per month.

And guess what?

Attractive women have usually dated a LOT of men.

That's right. They have EXPERIENCE.

They know what to expect.

And one thing that turns an attractive women off and sends her running away faster than just about anything is a guy who starts saying "You know, I really, REALLY like you" after one or two dates.

This signals to the woman that you're just like all the other guys who fall for her too fast... and can't control themselves.

Don't do it. Lean back. Relax.

There's a much better way...

MISTAKE #6: Not “Getting” How Attraction Works For Women

Women are VERY different from men when it comes to ATTRACTION.

You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.

When a man sees a beautiful, young, sexy woman, he INSTANTLY feels a sexual attraction.

But does the same apply for women?

Do women feel sexual attraction to men based mostly on looks? Or is something else going on?

Well, after studying this topic for over five full years now, I can tell you that women usually have their "attraction mechanisms" triggered by things OTHER than looks.

Have you ever noticed that you see a lot more average and unattractive men with beautiful women than the other way around?

Think about it.

Women are more attracted to certain qualities in men... and they're attracted to the way a man makes them FEEL than they are to looks alone.

If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

But it's not an accident. You have to LEARN how to do this.

And ANY guy can learn how...

MISTAKE #7: Thinking That It
Takes Money And Looks

One of the most common mistakes that guys make is giving up before they've even gotten started... because they think that attractive women are only interested in men who have looks and money... or guys who are a certain height... or guys who are a certain age.

And sure, there are some women who are only interested in these things.

But MOST women are far more interested in a man's personality than his wallet or his looks.

There are personality traits that attract women like a magnet...

And if you learn what they are and how to use them, YOU can be one of these guys.

YOU DO NOT have to "settle" for a woman just because you aren't rich, tall, or handsome.

Let me say this again: If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

MISTAKE #8: Giving Away
All Of Your Power To Women

Earlier I mentioned that it's a mistake to look to a woman for approval or permission.

Well, another similar tactic that a lot of guys use is GIVING AWAY THEIR POWER to women.

Said differently, guys try to get women to like them by doing whatever the woman wants.

Another bad idea...

Women are NEVER attracted to men that they can walk all over...Women aren't attracted to Wussies!

MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing
EXACTLY What To Do In Each
Type Of Situation With Women

Now I'm going to blow your mind...

A woman ALWAYS knows what you're thinking.

Women are approximately TEN TIMES better than men at reading body language. That's ten TIMES.

I know, it might be hard to believe. But for example, if you're out on a date with a woman, and you want to kiss her, she knows it.

And if you don't know exactly what to do and exactly HOW to kiss her, and you just sit there looking at her and getting nervous, she won't help!

And this goes for ALL aspects of women and dating...

Approaching a woman, getting her number, asking her out, kissing her, getting physical... everything.

If you don't know what to do in each situation, you will probably screw it up... and LOSE EVERYTHING.

And you KNOW it.

It is VITALLY important that you know EXACTLY how to go from one step to the next with a woman... from the first meeting, all the way to the bedroom.

MISTAKE #10: Not Getting HELP

This is the biggest mistake of all.

This is the mistake that keeps most men from EVER having the kind of success with women that they truly want.

I know, guys don't like to make themselves look weak or helpless. We don't like to ask for help.

Hey, I've been there myself.

Let me tell you a little about me and how I figured out how to be successful with women...

About five years ago I became fed up with the fact that I didn't know how to approach, meet, and get dates with women that I was attracted to.

It frustrated the hell out of me.

One night I was out with a friend, and I saw a woman I wanted to ask out, but I just couldn't get up the nerve to do it. I can still remember that night... right on the spot I made the decision to do whatever it took to learn how to be successful with women and dating.

Well, after a lot of hard work and trying all kinds of crazy things, I finally figured it all out.

I can now approach just about any woman and get her number almost instantly. I've dated models, I've dated actresses, and I've dated nice, normal, regular girls as well.

It has been a very rewarding experience. I no longer feel that sick, insecure feeling... like I don't know how to meet women... and I might wind up alone.

I know that anytime, anywhere, I can go out and meet attractive women.

衝動

很感激　這城市擁擠的交通
讓你我　還能多相處幾分鐘
人潮中　怕失散所以輕輕拉你的手
一刻不放鬆　不放鬆
忍不住　想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我　會有點寂寞
你給的幸福　在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住　想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著　能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受　不怕失落
關於你的一切　我想要比誰都懂

我的心　是被你設定的鬧鐘
提醒我　想你的時間不夠用
為什麼　平淡的事情現在忽然生動
是你改變我　你改變我

忍不住　想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我　會有點寂寞
你給的幸福　在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住　想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著　能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受　不怕失落
關於你的一切　我想要比誰都懂

你是情人　還是朋友
還沒勇氣　想得太多
你的世界　如此遼闊
我會在哪個角落

忍不住　想要愛你的衝動
不確定你屬於我　會有點寂寞
你給的幸福　在我心中自由走動
撫平我每一個傷口
忍不住　想要吻你的衝動
不確定我的執著　能讓你感動
我只能相信自己感受　不怕失落
關於你的一切　我想要比誰都懂

Weird/Funny Calls of the day Part 2

Me: Good Evening S******, this is Yuanbin, how may I assist you?

Customer: Good Evening, I'm using a prepaid card service of your company, and I'm unable to send out sms, I'm deaf, I can't hear you, can you help me?

Me: !!! You are deaf? I'm sorry but how can I assist you?

Customer: Good Evening, I'm using a prepaid card service of your company, and I'm unable to send out sms, I'm deaf, I can't hear you, can you help me?

Me: How can I tell you anything when your deaf? So the problem is you can't send out sms?

Customer: Good Evening, I'm using a prepaid card service of your company, and I'm unable to send out sms, I'm deaf, I can't hear you, can you help me?

Me: ... I'll send you a sms advising you what to do...

*hangs up*

Weird/Funny Calls of the day

Me: Good Evening S******, this is Yuanbin, how may i assist you?

Customer: I do blowjob and masturbation for SGD$10.00...

Me: I'm sorry?

Customer: I do blowjob and masturbation for SGD$10.00...

Me: You do blowjob and masturbation for SGD$10.00?

Customer: Yes, I do blowjob and masturbation for SGD$10.00...

Me: Is there anything I can assist you with?

Customer: Yes, I do blowjob and masturbation for SGD$10.00...

Me: ... ... Is there anything related to S****** that I can assist you with?

Customer: No...

Me: All right, thank you for calling S******, goodbye!

Customer: Oh... okie... goodbye!

Me: ... ...

stopping the throat

Ahhh..... seems to be better after seeing the doctor and stopping the inflammation...

So scary to have it keeps bleeding...

Hopefully to recover soon.... it makes my temper bad... =(

not just sore throat?

Really got stunned when i cough and find blood, hopefully its just the throat thats injured...

Gotta see a doctor tmr...

Vietnam Trip

Just went to Vietnam from 02/06/08 till 06/06/08, its been a while since I've went for vacation.

It has been a very fun trip, meeting my friend there and having a fun, relaxing life over there and especially awesome good food at cheap pricing! Especially the cafe and bar over there, and the ultimate service experience, Singapore has alot to learn =)

Been to some places like the museum, war museum and a couple more, how I wish I have more time to travel around the whole of Vietnam and go to all the other places of attraction =(

One thing bad though, the traffic and road are seriously in need of a big revamps!

And after the trip, "Kan Kai Le", opened my eyes and my mind, this trip is worth it, never regret going for this trip. Next trip? Taiwan with you.


Just some random photos not all:


Friends & Relatives sending me off






























FOOD!
















The place my friend lent me to stay






























Some of the places I've went to...

Way Back Into Love lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

痴心绝对

想用一杯 latte 把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味
你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱的太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你做任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

Meetup with old friends from nyp

They met at 9pm and waited for me until 12am... What a bunch of friends ^.^

I released from work at 11.30pm and took a train to City Hall, went pass City Link to Suntec City before crossing the road over to Marina Square. Then Daniel called me and i confirmed with him is it after Marina Square I would reach the place and he said yes, and that made me walked an extra 40 minutes all the way to the back of Millenia Walk when Paulaner is near the main entrance instead!

Anyway, I finally settled in the place around 12.20am and ordered a large glass of beer, it took a while for me to find them so I called them to check where they were seated. We ordered a plate of sausage also, and listened to the songs sang by the singers live.

We stayed a while, chatted, laughed, mocking each other and finding out how each other has been doing.

Thanks for the willingness to wait, though all of you have nothing on the next day while I have to work, but I enjoyed the company a lot, we should have gathered like this long ago. I missed you guys =)

Thanks Georgina, Yanting, Matthew and Daniel.

Georgina, you really need to get fatter, looks like whatever you have been testing on didn't work. =) But still you are still as pretty as ever. :x

Yanting, you really need to lose some weight and stop looking as if you are sleeping! And most of all, don't enjoy channel newsasia lah =.=

Niu ge, you seemed like no change leh, and you finally found a job with ST eh after searching for so long. Wish you all the best in the job, and I might join you soon? Anyway, thanks for the advice to join IRA, I would find out more information and ask about it from Xiaoqi as well. =) (now you better don't tell her I've lost her contact :P)

Matthew, still as funny as ever, fit also. You seemed taller leh? But shouldn't slack off already, time to find a job as well, you are graduating soon =)

Now... I just wish I can meet up with Stealth as well, he seem changed, but we used to enjoy each other company so much, including with Diana and Shivani, I miss you all =)

Term Summary

Object-Oriented Analysis & Design: A+
Management Communication: B
Leadership & Team Building: B-
Introductory Statistics B: D+

To conclude my year 1 term 2. Already expected to score at least an A for OOAD but was expecting at least a C for statistics... The summary is... trying to juggle 2 jobs, full-time studies and managing friends ALL at the same time just isn't as easy as it seems! The result does not lie. For the first job, I'm always late as rushing to meet the working hours, the second job, i have MC sometimes, for studies i haven't really done as well as i expected and for friends I think i haven't done a good job thus far.

At least, during the 1 week study week, I should have at least practiced my stats, if I did, probably i wouldn't have done so badly. But most probably, I'm running away from it as I have totally burned out both mentally and physically, I know that because sometimes I just could not control my emotions!

This term has really let me learned about my limits, an ordinary man is never a superman, there is always a limit to how much can be done. With this experience, next term, I will strive to do a better job by managing my time better and select the appropriate work load.

To conclude, I'm not as young as before, working as young as from 16 just doesn't serve its purpose, I'm so tired... so very tired... I really hate the life of now... I want to change, I want to live in a country where the pace of life is not so fast... I'm only 23... but it seems as if I have walked 43 years of life already, I want to slow down, really really slow down... For those of you who always wonder why I take things so lightly and do everything slowly, walking, eating etc. This is the reason why...

A man is born not to fulfill any responsibility towards the family, the society, the government, the country or to the world. A man is born to be responsible for himself and make his own life an enjoyable and meaningful one, doing what he really wants to do and being responsible for it, and enjoying everyday as it goes by. You can have a general plan of what you want to do in your life, your future, but never make any detailed plans for it, because every stage of your life, your thinking will change for definite. If you planned so far ahead to work like crazy for the first 30 years of your life so you can enjoy thoroughly for the next 30, so what if you die during the first 30 years of your life? Just be who you are, enjoy everyday as it is, live a carefree life. Sometimes, it is good to slow down, and to observe... Are you enjoying your life as it is? Or are you simply living through your life as it is?

Take time, slow down and think about it... I'm old, way too old for who I really am. How much stages of life have I missed? Countless... How much fun have I missed out? Countless... How many mistakes have I made? Countless... Reflecting through life, if I can relive my life again, I would have definitely chosen a different way to do things...

To A: I'm so sorry that I had said I love you, in fact I don't... If I do, I would have done things quite differently, maybe it is just infatuation...

To B: I really really love you back then, but because I'm not experienced enough and I thought things way too futuristic. I thought that "friends go a longer way than a bf/gf" and I gave a big lie and tried so desperately to go after other girls just to forget about you. This is an action that I have regretted ever since and it kept me from being interested in any girls for these 5 years... To date, I still love you just that the flame is kept to minimum, because I knew I have blown my chance away 5 years ago. Thank you for forgiving me, thank you for accepting my apologies, if else I wouldn't have been able to continue progressing in my life.

To C: Thank you for being there with me whenever I really need you. I always thought to maintain a relationship, you really need to spend time and effort in it but you taught me otherwise. So many times I have been angry with you for not being able to give me your time, but to you, it always is you tried to squeeze out any time you have for me, everyone is different, I shouldn't have expected too much from you. Though I have taught you a lot about life, this one lesson you gave me is much much more important. You always seem so boyish but sometimes you have the girlish element inside you as well. You have so much secrets in you, sometimes somewhere near the future I hope I can be a listener for you. Sometimes, you just do some stupid and silly things, because you never want to believe in what other people taught you as you are way too stubborn and want to learn it through the hard way! Please listen to what I've just told you, be more careful, because no matter what it seems, you are still a girl. I still enjoy the slow walk with you, enjoying the wind blowing, it seems you don't really like it but you still accompanied me, thanks! Maybe one day I will love you as a girl, I do not know my heart, but now you regained my faith in you as a friend. If you ever need any advice(if you ever listen), or just need a listening ear, you know I'm there for you.

To D: You have been a very close buddy of mine for years and have taught a lot of things to me, be it good or bad, we just need to experience it at least once to understand. Please quit your gambling addiction as it is really harmful to your life, I sincerely hope you can do so. Find a girlfriend, keep yourself away from all these harmful addictions, relive your life, a life is never too long, take the chance, turn back as early as you can. I'm missing your company, please come back soon from all your trips. I want to see how you have become, and "preach" to you again to stop your harmful addictions. But in all, I know you are still a very great buddy of mine for letting me owe you $1k for nearly a whole year hahaha! And I really enjoyed your companionship for all these years and all the things you taught me.

To E: You are the only other close buddy that I have for all these years. I have never blamed you for luring me into gambling. The more debts I run, the more dangerous I would understand gambling addiction would be. Thankfully I've managed to get rid of this addiction. Thanks for the loan of $1k to repay my debt even without me asking you for help. And thank you for all the countless help that you have rendered thus far. You have been a great company all this while, but maybe without you, I would have gotten a girlfriend already? Hehehe, I'm just kidding. I'm really really thankful to you for all these years, all 3 of us, super close buddies, never ever concern about when is whose turn to treat each other, we really need to get together, I miss the times we 3 had together, so enjoyable. I would never have been able to repay your help towards me all these years, but definitely being able to bring you and Ms Ngoc together is the best repay I can ever have towards you. I'm forever correct in my judgment, you 2 should be together for years to come, please "employ" me to be your bridegroom as I wish you a happy life forever and ever.

To F: You are my dearest up till now. I've never meant to be of worries to you, I just want to be truthful to you. Please do not worry for me, I can and would take good care of myself, it is just me who is forever vulnerable to illness, trust me. It remains a fact that I truly love you a lot, and I really miss you a lot ever since you went back. Every second, I would think of you, I just can't help it no matter how rational I can be, I can never turn the fact the other way round. I know you care about me and sometimes you might love me a bit, how I wish I could have met you a year earlier, you would never be hurt and we could be together... But if I come to SMU a year earlier, there is a chance that I would never have met you... Thank you for making my life this term an extremely enjoyable one. I could never state a reason why I love you simply because I love you for who you are. Please try to change away that bad habit of yours for always thinking and bringing unnecessary stress and pressure to yourself. I think I might failed in my promise to visit you this summer back in your country and in the promise that you will see a hot man after the summer. I will always be around for you whenever you need me. I don't know why, but all I want now is just to hold you and hug you. I know you are enjoying your times back there with all your friends, but please just do not forget about me. How long more can I be there for you?

To Mum: You are the greatest mum ever! I've never blamed you for letting me live a life full of hardships as it helps me to grow and be more sensible and mature than most other people of my age, it lets me be more experienced in life. There are times I would shout at you for being naggy, please know that it is just because I'm feeling frustrated at that time, and never meant to hurt you in any way. It hurts to see you struggling at your old age still working with all the illness and pains to try and support the family. You are the greatest mum ever and I still want to let you know that I love you the most. How I wish I can graduate soon and fulfill my promise of letting you live a carefree life.

To Brother & Sister: If it had not been your sudden desire to just go for graduate studies, mum wouldn't have to suffer so much if both of you continue to work. I do not forbid your action as it is for your own good, but please graduate early to relieve the pressure off mum. My sister, you have got to stopped being so blind to trust that guy so much, he is just not worth you! My brother, you have slimmed down so much, it is time to think about marriage at your age.

To other friends: Though most of you are more likely considered as acquaintances as we don't really talk to and about each other often, each and every one of you made a difference in my life.

Hahaha... why am I saying this? I do not know why, because life is filled with so many uncertainties, I hope if I never have a chance to say these, at least it is still here to let all those involved know. If I live through the ages, this post will certainly brings back memories of how I've felt in my 23rd year. I hope, I hope, that the list continues...

Amazon Abyss

Yes... it is a program by BBC for discovery channel... But I enjoyed watching discovery channel simply because I just want to find out more about the world that we lived in.

It is more like a documentary show, but it really amazed me to find out about wildlife in the amazon river, and I would never have known that the amazon river is full of dirt and dust, that the forest will be flooded with water and marine life in most time of the year...

Definitely interesting for people who are as interested as me to find out more about the earth, but a bit boring for those who aren't. There's no effects, no special nothing, just a documentary, I wouldn't say no to it or any similar series.

If only I can travel around the world to find out more about the lives, wildlife or human habitats, cities or rural areas, if only I can start traveling...

Rate: 8.0/10

Jumper

A fresh storyline it seems, quite fresh enough for me to watch... A guy born with the ability to jump through space to anywhere in the world... Just imagine what will you do if you have this kind of ability?

The main lead in this story used it to steal money from banks, but other than that, live a decent life, not causing any other harms to anyone else. Then here it comes, crusade army... Just why does everything has to be linked to the crusade army? I'm not a Christian, i do not know what is the crusade army and what does it do... but it seems rather even in storybooks and most movies, including the "Da Vinci Code" use it as well. Anyway, the hero get hunted by the army, so he joined forces with another jumper to try and save his own life.

Is the movie trying to shows that the crusade is the holy force? Of course not, because they kill recklessly as well, so I'm not quite sure what the director wants the crusade to be depicted as...

Anyway, it is still the same old story, whereby the hero managed to save his own ass and get a beauty in the end, and they continue to live that "jumping" life.

So just imagine, what will you do if you have this ability? Who will still be with you? Just what will happen? Its a fresh story, with some special effects to show the "jumping" effect, other than that, quite normal, but still worth the ticket price to watch.

Rate: 7.0/10

Bats – Human Harvest

A "B-rated" film again. The same old story of how a mad scientist goes against his own country just because he feels the country did injustice to him.

The story is set in a forest in Russia, whereby the scientist develop bats craving for meats, any meats... controllable by sound wave system developed by the scientist himself...

An US military troop is sent in to capture the scientist to stop his evil plan.. blah blah blah... everyone dies in the end, left 1 hero to stop the scientist, same old plot... nothing fancy with the storyline... nothing fancy about the sound effects... nothing fancy about the graphics, not even any musics... no specials at all... a film worthy to watch in the 90s when everything was simple, but in the 21st century, it just doesn't fit in.

It isn't worth the ticket price to watch at any cinema currently, but buying some cheap vcd is still decent enough to kill some time.

Rate: 4.0/10

quarrel with my dear again... 2nd time in a week

Haiz... why did I quarrel with you again my dear? The first time was you really made me angry... This time i did have a bad day and your repeated ignoring and throwing of tantrum just made me angry again. I'm so sorry, there were so many signs that show that you are having a stressful time, I should have kept my temper in hold... and i shouldn't have joke at that wrong time, what can I say? Guys are just stupid!

Shrieking more than usual, missing class when you never used to, asking me to give you private time and so much more, I know... Seeing how I made you cried last night, I feel that I am such an extra stress to you, always causing you to be upset and angry... Then I made the most painful decision ever, putting a knife through my heart every second as I tried to convince myself that is the best choice for you... To leave you forever, giving you the space and time that you need, and taking me, the extra stress factor away from your already stressful life.

It was such a painful decision that my heart bleeds profusely even as I am writing this... It is not about how much you have hurt me, I am prepared to take all the hurts you inflicted on me even though some were said in a fit of anger for example when you said I am annoying... But I am so glad that I kept my cool and did not just leave you alone yesterday, if not, I will feel guilty forever....

But why do you have call me earlier and forgive me... It was such a hard decision for me to make, you don't know how many holes I have inflicted on my heart to make this decision... I am totally unsure what to do now already...

The Mist

SUPER sad show okay? Yes yes, it is a typical government project went wrong, monsters terrorize the land inside the mist.

But the show goes deeper, showing how desperate human can get when in emergency situations. How irrational human can becomes when the situation becomes so bad, how they can believe in belief which they wouldn't usually just because it gave them hope of survival. How they can unreasonably killed anyone just for the sake of thinking they might live.

The main lead is not the random normal hero of any film, he is not Rambo, not the Blade, or the typical hero you would expect to see. He tries to take the lead to lead everyone to safety yet still shows just how weak and vulnerable a human can be. More reasonable human than those heroes.

The ending is the worse part of all. It is not that we can't take sad endings, but this ending is just terrible, that a supposed high rating film will be rated much lower just because of it. Of course in a land terrorized by monster, where you know there is no escape, where there is no news of any survivors or rescue missions by the military, where it is just endless mist and death, suicide is acceptable. The lead killed all his passengers, including his beloved son, and do not have a final bullet to kill himself, just went outside of the safe car, wanting to be killed by the monsters. But this is the bad part! Just seconds after he killed them all, he heard something coming. The monsters? Nope... worse... it is the army! All fully armed and prepared, destroying all the monsters and the mist is clearing right behind them with all the survivors being ferried out. How heart-wrenching can it be when you decided to end the lives of your loved one, family and friends, and the next moment, they come and tell you everything is over?!

It is a good film, really exploring into the minds of human, but the ending is just terrible, i couldn't find any other words to describe it, maybe you could? Even though i still give it a good rating for overall, just this ending alone might give you a second thought.

Rate: 8.0/10

Spiderwick Chronicle

Yes, it might be a rather kiddish show. But it revolves around family warmth and teamwork.

But rather disappointing fact is I am expecting more different kind of creatures for such a mythical fantasy show.

And its the normal kids get together, fight the big bad boss together, killed him and won, and everyone lives happily ever after. Though the twist on how the big bad boss got killed is rather funny! Being eaten up by another creature that always say teamwork but only knows how to hide at safe spot.

When they ride on the griffin, the scene is much better than Harry Potter's.

I wouldn't say it is a must watch, fantasy show and creatures, everyone has watched before. But with the touching element of family values, with slight sense of humors that provides occasional laughter, it is indeed worth its price even on a weekend.

Rate: 7.5/10

The 19th Space

Firstly it shows multi years ago where a handsome young guy committed suicide. Then current year, a group of 4 female students went to live in an old but big dormitory where very coincidentally their room no. is 13, which symbolizes bad luck and inauspicious for Chinese belief.

Slowly... the plot shows how one by one they are being drawn into a hell game, where one by one they died mysteriously. However the story ends up with a rather awkward twist in the end. All of them woke up to find that actually ALL of them were in a hallucination?!

Firstly it felt eerie like a ghost movie, but just half-way through, it is easily guessed that the psychiatrist in the school offering counseling service is the culprit behind everything. However, the twist in the ending just makes it confusing.

No particular famous person except twins acted in this movie, not too many movie effect and no music as well. Just a B rate film.

Rate: 4.5/10

Pretty Lady so charming even girl falls for

Just went out on Sunday with my dear to The Heeren to shop, so as to take part in the lucky draw, hopefully to win the 1st prize of 2-person trip to Europe, wanting to go with my dear so much. Let's hope dream comes true in god's favoritism.

When we were eating dinner at Thai Express, just when we were about to go, there was this lady who just came in. My dear was so mesmerized by her that she just can't stop looking. Argh, i even lose to a girl!!! So jealous!!!

But she is indeed very pretty, I might hunt her if I was not already blinded by my dear... She is pretty, sporty and good figure and sports a long silky hair... Totally charming, aww.... Can she be single? xD

Anyway, we did a bet and I went to ask her to take a photo shoot with her. Here it is:

Greeks Masterpieces at National Museum

Went to the national museum while i was supposed to do project, how bad i am... When was this? Couldn't remember anyway =D

By the time i went in with my dear, there was a guide starting to explain the stories behind the artifacts and statues.


There were a lot more, but I'm sure if I can take photos so this is the only one I took secretly.

Entrance fee is cheap also, but this exhibition is already over, so too bad =)

Wonder how life really is back then...

Busy? It's just a great escape

This entry is being posted with reference to an article post by Anna Thomas which is published on My Paper, Friday February 22, 2008. There are of course my own opinion, but all credits to Anna Thomas.

Busy. How many times have we been using this word in our life? Countless. Even I, myself have been using it so many times. But do we really understand what this word really means? I do not know until I've read the article by Anna and it really makes sense.

"Claiming that i am busy implies that i am capable of utilising time, but that time is reserved for issues more important than the person I am speaking with. It is equivalent to saying that the other person is not my priority."

How true is it? Even in my own case, it stays very true. For example, when 2 friends ask me for assistance on the same day same time, I will generally tell one of them, the least important one that I am too busy helping the other person rather than being able to spare time to help him/her, though for my personality i would try to accommodate both.

Aside from all these, for those who are reading this current article. Ask yourself whether that particular friend/colleague/relative/family of yours is doing the same to you. If so, you should understand the pecking order of you inside his/her heart. And of course, ask yourself this question as well, what's the pecking order of a specific particular inside your heart as of now? This word 'Busy' should help you answer your question.

Ever since I've read this article, i begin to see more clearly. One friend of mine whom has been disappointing me all these while, yet claiming that she still regards me as an important friend, is just practically lying with or without her own knowledge. Unless it's critical issues like hospitalized, death, injuries, sickness, urgent help cases, generally how important that particular person is to you will determine his/her pecking order inside your heart. That's why she has been breaking promises after promises, outings after outings. She might not have realized it but this fact shall remains.

And of course after several disappointments, with regrets I'm saying, dear friend, I'm so sorry that you are no longer among the top of my list, you have gone down the pecking order. All my friends are important to me, so I'm not lying when I said you are important to me but it's just that when things clashes, you are way below in the list for my consideration.

My dear and my 2 closest buddies shall remain the top of the list behind my family members, with the rest of my friends hanging below with no specific order, coupled by acquaintances filling up the bottom.

Busy? Think again before you decline/accept any request/outings/dates.

In Love With You

I know that this part is the girl's part, but these words describe what i want to tell you perfectly, my dear. I might be girlish in nature for certain characteristics, maybe? But it doesn't change the fact that I'm still a guy and how much i love you.

Tell me that you love me,
Tell me that you care.
Tell me that you need me,
And I'll be there...
I'll be there waiting~

I'll always love you,
I'll always stay true...
There's no one who love you like i do...
(Regine Velasquez)

There's a lot more in the song that i want to use to tell you, but this part is the only part fitting the bill. I don't care if it is a girl's part, I'll still sing it to you. Do you understand the meaning my dear? It's put out so plain obvious already, please do not question me again or do anything funny, because this will never change, ever.

Hating Life at OCS

Judging from how i work and how late i am for work, its not hard to observe and realize how much i detest working at OCS.

Just refer to my last post on my personality. WHO ARE YOU to complain about me not being responsible to inform you of my unavailability to report for work? I already highlighted to you way in advance that i will be having my dentist appointment and you are just not kind enough to grant me leave for that day?! I did my part to inform one of you when I'm done, I've fulfilled my responsibility already so what are you still complaining about? Its not like i didn't inform you at all?! Besides, you are the one that is less responsible!

I signed up for this Work Study Grant under your office for the period of November 2007 - December 2007, expecting to finish full 200 hours of work there and then, getting my deserved $2k as was advertised! It is you who is the one not responsible by not informing me that you want me to work until end of this semester instead and your contract stated that? How irresponsible and unethical you are to change the contract and only inform me after i signed it? Just look at how i work during November 2007 - December 2007? I was never late at all and always do my jobs fast and accurate!

Now I'm bonded by the contract and my school studies are suffering as a result, how can any normal person take on 2 jobs while studying full-time at freaking SMU that is so taxing on time? I'm so guilty towards my group mates for not being able to commit much time to them and even more so towards myself for treating myself so badly.

Anyway, i hate the work style at OCS too. I don't mind doing all the labor jobs or administrative assistant jobs or whatever unimportant job, but according to my personality, you have to make me feel wanted, make me feel I'm useful, isn't it? Without telling me what i am supposed to do each day, i felt so unwanted and useless that i have to apparently beg for jobs to do every time I'm there?!

Anh my dear, now you should understand why when the last day even when I'm sick i still went to the event, and as to why my feelings super low at that time, is because you demanded me to rest, making me felt so useless.

Now all I'm waiting for is for the 200 hours to be up and say sayonara to this place!!

Is there ever any employer out there that can fully utilize my ability and make me totally committed to the work?