Hating Life at OCS

Judging from how i work and how late i am for work, its not hard to observe and realize how much i detest working at OCS.

Just refer to my last post on my personality. WHO ARE YOU to complain about me not being responsible to inform you of my unavailability to report for work? I already highlighted to you way in advance that i will be having my dentist appointment and you are just not kind enough to grant me leave for that day?! I did my part to inform one of you when I'm done, I've fulfilled my responsibility already so what are you still complaining about? Its not like i didn't inform you at all?! Besides, you are the one that is less responsible!

I signed up for this Work Study Grant under your office for the period of November 2007 - December 2007, expecting to finish full 200 hours of work there and then, getting my deserved $2k as was advertised! It is you who is the one not responsible by not informing me that you want me to work until end of this semester instead and your contract stated that? How irresponsible and unethical you are to change the contract and only inform me after i signed it? Just look at how i work during November 2007 - December 2007? I was never late at all and always do my jobs fast and accurate!

Now I'm bonded by the contract and my school studies are suffering as a result, how can any normal person take on 2 jobs while studying full-time at freaking SMU that is so taxing on time? I'm so guilty towards my group mates for not being able to commit much time to them and even more so towards myself for treating myself so badly.

Anyway, i hate the work style at OCS too. I don't mind doing all the labor jobs or administrative assistant jobs or whatever unimportant job, but according to my personality, you have to make me feel wanted, make me feel I'm useful, isn't it? Without telling me what i am supposed to do each day, i felt so unwanted and useless that i have to apparently beg for jobs to do every time I'm there?!

Anh my dear, now you should understand why when the last day even when I'm sick i still went to the event, and as to why my feelings super low at that time, is because you demanded me to rest, making me felt so useless.

Now all I'm waiting for is for the 200 hours to be up and say sayonara to this place!!

Is there ever any employer out there that can fully utilize my ability and make me totally committed to the work?