Haiz... why did I quarrel with you again my dear? The first time was you really made me angry... This time i did have a bad day and your repeated ignoring and throwing of tantrum just made me angry again. I'm so sorry, there were so many signs that show that you are having a stressful time, I should have kept my temper in hold... and i shouldn't have joke at that wrong time, what can I say? Guys are just stupid!
Shrieking more than usual, missing class when you never used to, asking me to give you private time and so much more, I know... Seeing how I made you cried last night, I feel that I am such an extra stress to you, always causing you to be upset and angry... Then I made the most painful decision ever, putting a knife through my heart every second as I tried to convince myself that is the best choice for you... To leave you forever, giving you the space and time that you need, and taking me, the extra stress factor away from your already stressful life.
It was such a painful decision that my heart bleeds profusely even as I am writing this... It is not about how much you have hurt me, I am prepared to take all the hurts you inflicted on me even though some were said in a fit of anger for example when you said I am annoying... But I am so glad that I kept my cool and did not just leave you alone yesterday, if not, I will feel guilty forever....
But why do you have call me earlier and forgive me... It was such a hard decision for me to make, you don't know how many holes I have inflicted on my heart to make this decision... I am totally unsure what to do now already...
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