Haiz... why did I quarrel with you again my dear? The first time was you really made me angry... This time i did have a bad day and your repeated ignoring and throwing of tantrum just made me angry again. I'm so sorry, there were so many signs that show that you are having a stressful time, I should have kept my temper in hold... and i shouldn't have joke at that wrong time, what can I say? Guys are just stupid!
Shrieking more than usual, missing class when you never used to, asking me to give you private time and so much more, I know... Seeing how I made you cried last night, I feel that I am such an extra stress to you, always causing you to be upset and angry... Then I made the most painful decision ever, putting a knife through my heart every second as I tried to convince myself that is the best choice for you... To leave you forever, giving you the space and time that you need, and taking me, the extra stress factor away from your already stressful life.
It was such a painful decision that my heart bleeds profusely even as I am writing this... It is not about how much you have hurt me, I am prepared to take all the hurts you inflicted on me even though some were said in a fit of anger for example when you said I am annoying... But I am so glad that I kept my cool and did not just leave you alone yesterday, if not, I will feel guilty forever....
But why do you have call me earlier and forgive me... It was such a hard decision for me to make, you don't know how many holes I have inflicted on my heart to make this decision... I am totally unsure what to do now already...
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
The Mist
SUPER sad show okay? Yes yes, it is a typical government project went wrong, monsters terrorize the land inside the mist.
But the show goes deeper, showing how desperate human can get when in emergency situations. How irrational human can becomes when the situation becomes so bad, how they can believe in belief which they wouldn't usually just because it gave them hope of survival. How they can unreasonably killed anyone just for the sake of thinking they might live.
The main lead is not the random normal hero of any film, he is not Rambo, not the Blade, or the typical hero you would expect to see. He tries to take the lead to lead everyone to safety yet still shows just how weak and vulnerable a human can be. More reasonable human than those heroes.
The ending is the worse part of all. It is not that we can't take sad endings, but this ending is just terrible, that a supposed high rating film will be rated much lower just because of it. Of course in a land terrorized by monster, where you know there is no escape, where there is no news of any survivors or rescue missions by the military, where it is just endless mist and death, suicide is acceptable. The lead killed all his passengers, including his beloved son, and do not have a final bullet to kill himself, just went outside of the safe car, wanting to be killed by the monsters. But this is the bad part! Just seconds after he killed them all, he heard something coming. The monsters? Nope... worse... it is the army! All fully armed and prepared, destroying all the monsters and the mist is clearing right behind them with all the survivors being ferried out. How heart-wrenching can it be when you decided to end the lives of your loved one, family and friends, and the next moment, they come and tell you everything is over?!
It is a good film, really exploring into the minds of human, but the ending is just terrible, i couldn't find any other words to describe it, maybe you could? Even though i still give it a good rating for overall, just this ending alone might give you a second thought.
Rate: 8.0/10
But the show goes deeper, showing how desperate human can get when in emergency situations. How irrational human can becomes when the situation becomes so bad, how they can believe in belief which they wouldn't usually just because it gave them hope of survival. How they can unreasonably killed anyone just for the sake of thinking they might live.
The main lead is not the random normal hero of any film, he is not Rambo, not the Blade, or the typical hero you would expect to see. He tries to take the lead to lead everyone to safety yet still shows just how weak and vulnerable a human can be. More reasonable human than those heroes.
The ending is the worse part of all. It is not that we can't take sad endings, but this ending is just terrible, that a supposed high rating film will be rated much lower just because of it. Of course in a land terrorized by monster, where you know there is no escape, where there is no news of any survivors or rescue missions by the military, where it is just endless mist and death, suicide is acceptable. The lead killed all his passengers, including his beloved son, and do not have a final bullet to kill himself, just went outside of the safe car, wanting to be killed by the monsters. But this is the bad part! Just seconds after he killed them all, he heard something coming. The monsters? Nope... worse... it is the army! All fully armed and prepared, destroying all the monsters and the mist is clearing right behind them with all the survivors being ferried out. How heart-wrenching can it be when you decided to end the lives of your loved one, family and friends, and the next moment, they come and tell you everything is over?!
It is a good film, really exploring into the minds of human, but the ending is just terrible, i couldn't find any other words to describe it, maybe you could? Even though i still give it a good rating for overall, just this ending alone might give you a second thought.
Rate: 8.0/10
Spiderwick Chronicle
Yes, it might be a rather kiddish show. But it revolves around family warmth and teamwork.
But rather disappointing fact is I am expecting more different kind of creatures for such a mythical fantasy show.
And its the normal kids get together, fight the big bad boss together, killed him and won, and everyone lives happily ever after. Though the twist on how the big bad boss got killed is rather funny! Being eaten up by another creature that always say teamwork but only knows how to hide at safe spot.
When they ride on the griffin, the scene is much better than Harry Potter's.
I wouldn't say it is a must watch, fantasy show and creatures, everyone has watched before. But with the touching element of family values, with slight sense of humors that provides occasional laughter, it is indeed worth its price even on a weekend.
Rate: 7.5/10
But rather disappointing fact is I am expecting more different kind of creatures for such a mythical fantasy show.
And its the normal kids get together, fight the big bad boss together, killed him and won, and everyone lives happily ever after. Though the twist on how the big bad boss got killed is rather funny! Being eaten up by another creature that always say teamwork but only knows how to hide at safe spot.
When they ride on the griffin, the scene is much better than Harry Potter's.
I wouldn't say it is a must watch, fantasy show and creatures, everyone has watched before. But with the touching element of family values, with slight sense of humors that provides occasional laughter, it is indeed worth its price even on a weekend.
Rate: 7.5/10
The 19th Space
Firstly it shows multi years ago where a handsome young guy committed suicide. Then current year, a group of 4 female students went to live in an old but big dormitory where very coincidentally their room no. is 13, which symbolizes bad luck and inauspicious for Chinese belief.
Slowly... the plot shows how one by one they are being drawn into a hell game, where one by one they died mysteriously. However the story ends up with a rather awkward twist in the end. All of them woke up to find that actually ALL of them were in a hallucination?!
Firstly it felt eerie like a ghost movie, but just half-way through, it is easily guessed that the psychiatrist in the school offering counseling service is the culprit behind everything. However, the twist in the ending just makes it confusing.
No particular famous person except twins acted in this movie, not too many movie effect and no music as well. Just a B rate film.
Rate: 4.5/10
Slowly... the plot shows how one by one they are being drawn into a hell game, where one by one they died mysteriously. However the story ends up with a rather awkward twist in the end. All of them woke up to find that actually ALL of them were in a hallucination?!
Firstly it felt eerie like a ghost movie, but just half-way through, it is easily guessed that the psychiatrist in the school offering counseling service is the culprit behind everything. However, the twist in the ending just makes it confusing.
No particular famous person except twins acted in this movie, not too many movie effect and no music as well. Just a B rate film.
Rate: 4.5/10
Pretty Lady so charming even girl falls for
Just went out on Sunday with my dear to The Heeren to shop, so as to take part in the lucky draw, hopefully to win the 1st prize of 2-person trip to Europe, wanting to go with my dear so much. Let's hope dream comes true in god's favoritism.
When we were eating dinner at Thai Express, just when we were about to go, there was this lady who just came in. My dear was so mesmerized by her that she just can't stop looking. Argh, i even lose to a girl!!! So jealous!!!
But she is indeed very pretty, I might hunt her if I was not already blinded by my dear... She is pretty, sporty and good figure and sports a long silky hair... Totally charming, aww.... Can she be single? xD
Anyway, we did a bet and I went to ask her to take a photo shoot with her. Here it is:
When we were eating dinner at Thai Express, just when we were about to go, there was this lady who just came in. My dear was so mesmerized by her that she just can't stop looking. Argh, i even lose to a girl!!! So jealous!!!
But she is indeed very pretty, I might hunt her if I was not already blinded by my dear... She is pretty, sporty and good figure and sports a long silky hair... Totally charming, aww.... Can she be single? xD
Anyway, we did a bet and I went to ask her to take a photo shoot with her. Here it is:
Greeks Masterpieces at National Museum
Went to the national museum while i was supposed to do project, how bad i am... When was this? Couldn't remember anyway =D
By the time i went in with my dear, there was a guide starting to explain the stories behind the artifacts and statues.
There were a lot more, but I'm sure if I can take photos so this is the only one I took secretly.
Entrance fee is cheap also, but this exhibition is already over, so too bad =)
Wonder how life really is back then...
By the time i went in with my dear, there was a guide starting to explain the stories behind the artifacts and statues.
There were a lot more, but I'm sure if I can take photos so this is the only one I took secretly.
Entrance fee is cheap also, but this exhibition is already over, so too bad =)
Wonder how life really is back then...
Friday, March 14, 2008
Busy? It's just a great escape
This entry is being posted with reference to an article post by Anna Thomas which is published on My Paper, Friday February 22, 2008. There are of course my own opinion, but all credits to Anna Thomas.
Busy. How many times have we been using this word in our life? Countless. Even I, myself have been using it so many times. But do we really understand what this word really means? I do not know until I've read the article by Anna and it really makes sense.
"Claiming that i am busy implies that i am capable of utilising time, but that time is reserved for issues more important than the person I am speaking with. It is equivalent to saying that the other person is not my priority."
How true is it? Even in my own case, it stays very true. For example, when 2 friends ask me for assistance on the same day same time, I will generally tell one of them, the least important one that I am too busy helping the other person rather than being able to spare time to help him/her, though for my personality i would try to accommodate both.
Aside from all these, for those who are reading this current article. Ask yourself whether that particular friend/colleague/relative/family of yours is doing the same to you. If so, you should understand the pecking order of you inside his/her heart. And of course, ask yourself this question as well, what's the pecking order of a specific particular inside your heart as of now? This word 'Busy' should help you answer your question.
Ever since I've read this article, i begin to see more clearly. One friend of mine whom has been disappointing me all these while, yet claiming that she still regards me as an important friend, is just practically lying with or without her own knowledge. Unless it's critical issues like hospitalized, death, injuries, sickness, urgent help cases, generally how important that particular person is to you will determine his/her pecking order inside your heart. That's why she has been breaking promises after promises, outings after outings. She might not have realized it but this fact shall remains.
And of course after several disappointments, with regrets I'm saying, dear friend, I'm so sorry that you are no longer among the top of my list, you have gone down the pecking order. All my friends are important to me, so I'm not lying when I said you are important to me but it's just that when things clashes, you are way below in the list for my consideration.
My dear and my 2 closest buddies shall remain the top of the list behind my family members, with the rest of my friends hanging below with no specific order, coupled by acquaintances filling up the bottom.
Busy? Think again before you decline/accept any request/outings/dates.
Busy. How many times have we been using this word in our life? Countless. Even I, myself have been using it so many times. But do we really understand what this word really means? I do not know until I've read the article by Anna and it really makes sense.
"Claiming that i am busy implies that i am capable of utilising time, but that time is reserved for issues more important than the person I am speaking with. It is equivalent to saying that the other person is not my priority."
How true is it? Even in my own case, it stays very true. For example, when 2 friends ask me for assistance on the same day same time, I will generally tell one of them, the least important one that I am too busy helping the other person rather than being able to spare time to help him/her, though for my personality i would try to accommodate both.
Aside from all these, for those who are reading this current article. Ask yourself whether that particular friend/colleague/relative/family of yours is doing the same to you. If so, you should understand the pecking order of you inside his/her heart. And of course, ask yourself this question as well, what's the pecking order of a specific particular inside your heart as of now? This word 'Busy' should help you answer your question.
Ever since I've read this article, i begin to see more clearly. One friend of mine whom has been disappointing me all these while, yet claiming that she still regards me as an important friend, is just practically lying with or without her own knowledge. Unless it's critical issues like hospitalized, death, injuries, sickness, urgent help cases, generally how important that particular person is to you will determine his/her pecking order inside your heart. That's why she has been breaking promises after promises, outings after outings. She might not have realized it but this fact shall remains.
And of course after several disappointments, with regrets I'm saying, dear friend, I'm so sorry that you are no longer among the top of my list, you have gone down the pecking order. All my friends are important to me, so I'm not lying when I said you are important to me but it's just that when things clashes, you are way below in the list for my consideration.
My dear and my 2 closest buddies shall remain the top of the list behind my family members, with the rest of my friends hanging below with no specific order, coupled by acquaintances filling up the bottom.
Busy? Think again before you decline/accept any request/outings/dates.
In Love With You
I know that this part is the girl's part, but these words describe what i want to tell you perfectly, my dear. I might be girlish in nature for certain characteristics, maybe? But it doesn't change the fact that I'm still a guy and how much i love you.
Tell me that you love me,
Tell me that you care.
Tell me that you need me,
And I'll be there...
I'll be there waiting~
I'll always love you,
I'll always stay true...
There's no one who love you like i do...
(Regine Velasquez)
There's a lot more in the song that i want to use to tell you, but this part is the only part fitting the bill. I don't care if it is a girl's part, I'll still sing it to you. Do you understand the meaning my dear? It's put out so plain obvious already, please do not question me again or do anything funny, because this will never change, ever.
Tell me that you love me,
Tell me that you care.
Tell me that you need me,
And I'll be there...
I'll be there waiting~
I'll always love you,
I'll always stay true...
There's no one who love you like i do...
There's a lot more in the song that i want to use to tell you, but this part is the only part fitting the bill. I don't care if it is a girl's part, I'll still sing it to you. Do you understand the meaning my dear? It's put out so plain obvious already, please do not question me again or do anything funny, because this will never change, ever.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Hating Life at OCS
Judging from how i work and how late i am for work, its not hard to observe and realize how much i detest working at OCS.
Just refer to my last post on my personality. WHO ARE YOU to complain about me not being responsible to inform you of my unavailability to report for work? I already highlighted to you way in advance that i will be having my dentist appointment and you are just not kind enough to grant me leave for that day?! I did my part to inform one of you when I'm done, I've fulfilled my responsibility already so what are you still complaining about? Its not like i didn't inform you at all?! Besides, you are the one that is less responsible!
I signed up for this Work Study Grant under your office for the period of November 2007 - December 2007, expecting to finish full 200 hours of work there and then, getting my deserved $2k as was advertised! It is you who is the one not responsible by not informing me that you want me to work until end of this semester instead and your contract stated that? How irresponsible and unethical you are to change the contract and only inform me after i signed it? Just look at how i work during November 2007 - December 2007? I was never late at all and always do my jobs fast and accurate!
Now I'm bonded by the contract and my school studies are suffering as a result, how can any normal person take on 2 jobs while studying full-time at freaking SMU that is so taxing on time? I'm so guilty towards my group mates for not being able to commit much time to them and even more so towards myself for treating myself so badly.
Anyway, i hate the work style at OCS too. I don't mind doing all the labor jobs or administrative assistant jobs or whatever unimportant job, but according to my personality, you have to make me feel wanted, make me feel I'm useful, isn't it? Without telling me what i am supposed to do each day, i felt so unwanted and useless that i have to apparently beg for jobs to do every time I'm there?!
Anh my dear, now you should understand why when the last day even when I'm sick i still went to the event, and as to why my feelings super low at that time, is because you demanded me to rest, making me felt so useless.
Now all I'm waiting for is for the 200 hours to be up and say sayonara to this place!!
Is there ever any employer out there that can fully utilize my ability and make me totally committed to the work?
Just refer to my last post on my personality. WHO ARE YOU to complain about me not being responsible to inform you of my unavailability to report for work? I already highlighted to you way in advance that i will be having my dentist appointment and you are just not kind enough to grant me leave for that day?! I did my part to inform one of you when I'm done, I've fulfilled my responsibility already so what are you still complaining about? Its not like i didn't inform you at all?! Besides, you are the one that is less responsible!
I signed up for this Work Study Grant under your office for the period of November 2007 - December 2007, expecting to finish full 200 hours of work there and then, getting my deserved $2k as was advertised! It is you who is the one not responsible by not informing me that you want me to work until end of this semester instead and your contract stated that? How irresponsible and unethical you are to change the contract and only inform me after i signed it? Just look at how i work during November 2007 - December 2007? I was never late at all and always do my jobs fast and accurate!
Now I'm bonded by the contract and my school studies are suffering as a result, how can any normal person take on 2 jobs while studying full-time at freaking SMU that is so taxing on time? I'm so guilty towards my group mates for not being able to commit much time to them and even more so towards myself for treating myself so badly.
Anyway, i hate the work style at OCS too. I don't mind doing all the labor jobs or administrative assistant jobs or whatever unimportant job, but according to my personality, you have to make me feel wanted, make me feel I'm useful, isn't it? Without telling me what i am supposed to do each day, i felt so unwanted and useless that i have to apparently beg for jobs to do every time I'm there?!
Anh my dear, now you should understand why when the last day even when I'm sick i still went to the event, and as to why my feelings super low at that time, is because you demanded me to rest, making me felt so useless.
Now all I'm waiting for is for the 200 hours to be up and say sayonara to this place!!
Is there ever any employer out there that can fully utilize my ability and make me totally committed to the work?
Myers Briggs Personality Type
SJ - Sensing Judging - The Guardian
Symbolic Animal: The Beaver
"Responsible Stabalizer"
Group membership. Responsibility. Dependable, Stability. The desire to serve. Exist primarily to be useful. Must belong, and the belonging must be earned. Must be the giver rather than the receiver; the caretaker not the cared for. Parental. Compelled to be bound and obligated. Rules and regulations. Loves to join things. Hierarchy. Organizations. Enjoy taking charge. Naturally pessimistic - what can go wrong will go wrong. Be prepared. Love traditions, ceremonies, social units. Saves. If I don't do it, who will? Needs to control. The right things in the right place at the right time in the right quantity to the right people. Natural historians. Values work. Natural school teachers. Dress traditionally, often quality items. Always know the chain of Command. Instinctively do the right thing at the right time. Security. Authority. Standards and Norms. Fears depreciation. Sequenced and structured. Reverence for elders. Appreciative of fundamentals. Complains/whines when stressed. Goal oriented. Work ethic.
Symbolic Animal: The Beaver
"Responsible Stabalizer"
Group membership. Responsibility. Dependable, Stability. The desire to serve. Exist primarily to be useful. Must belong, and the belonging must be earned. Must be the giver rather than the receiver; the caretaker not the cared for. Parental. Compelled to be bound and obligated. Rules and regulations. Loves to join things. Hierarchy. Organizations. Enjoy taking charge. Naturally pessimistic - what can go wrong will go wrong. Be prepared. Love traditions, ceremonies, social units. Saves. If I don't do it, who will? Needs to control. The right things in the right place at the right time in the right quantity to the right people. Natural historians. Values work. Natural school teachers. Dress traditionally, often quality items. Always know the chain of Command. Instinctively do the right thing at the right time. Security. Authority. Standards and Norms. Fears depreciation. Sequenced and structured. Reverence for elders. Appreciative of fundamentals. Complains/whines when stressed. Goal oriented. Work ethic.
10,000 BC
Was actually expecting big epic war scene, or maybe even bloody fighting scene with the ferocious creatures of the past... but all expectation failed.
If you are looking at LOTR series, you came to the wrong show. Jurassic Park? Definitely not. Want a romance show? Even not! So what show can this be? A woman was saved, prophecy to be the saver of the clan together with the person whom she's destined to be with. Somehow the story just isn't good enough, not captivating enough to hold the attention of the audience.
Another typical hero born save the day get his woman story again... Worse, there's no selected music/song in play!! But it does have some nice quotes which I'm quoting now to tell my dear Hanh these, no matter what you do or what you choose, each quote means differently:
"The light never goes away, just like you forever in my heart..."
"My heart walks with you."
Rate: 7.0/10
If you are looking at LOTR series, you came to the wrong show. Jurassic Park? Definitely not. Want a romance show? Even not! So what show can this be? A woman was saved, prophecy to be the saver of the clan together with the person whom she's destined to be with. Somehow the story just isn't good enough, not captivating enough to hold the attention of the audience.
Another typical hero born save the day get his woman story again... Worse, there's no selected music/song in play!! But it does have some nice quotes which I'm quoting now to tell my dear Hanh these, no matter what you do or what you choose, each quote means differently:
"The light never goes away, just like you forever in my heart..."
"My heart walks with you."
Rate: 7.0/10
Tsui Hark's Vampire Hunters
I bet i must have seen this before but anyway, the director tries to make this vampire show different from other vampire shows. You want to see vampire sucking blood? You don't get it, you get a vampire that's so rotten its rather called a corpse that has great sucking power to suck you dry.
And it employs CGI effect in an effort to make it better but rather, to my own preference, for HongKong style or rather chinese vampire movies, I'm quite obsessed with the Lin Zhengyin's style so its a big huha effort if you ask me, and maybe if you ask anyone else, it might be the same.
Speaking of storyline... nothing much interesting anyway... speaking of the romance in there... its just touch and go.
Even though the master of the 4 disciples sacrifice himself in the end, the whole movie just doesn't make sense at all... how can the master be separated from his disciples for few months when the scene shows they were so close when they got separated? There's just too many question marks in the movie, lame storyline, bad CGI... so it's better if this show is given a miss =)
Rate: 5.5/10
And it employs CGI effect in an effort to make it better but rather, to my own preference, for HongKong style or rather chinese vampire movies, I'm quite obsessed with the Lin Zhengyin's style so its a big huha effort if you ask me, and maybe if you ask anyone else, it might be the same.
Speaking of storyline... nothing much interesting anyway... speaking of the romance in there... its just touch and go.
Even though the master of the 4 disciples sacrifice himself in the end, the whole movie just doesn't make sense at all... how can the master be separated from his disciples for few months when the scene shows they were so close when they got separated? There's just too many question marks in the movie, lame storyline, bad CGI... so it's better if this show is given a miss =)
Rate: 5.5/10
Saturday, March 01, 2008
Introductory Statistic B Mid Term
Just took the Stats mid term earlier in the day, the only word left to say is die...
What i can hope for is only bell-shaped distribution (OMG Stats term) and hopefully everyone else scores just as bad, i don't want a C or D for this module!!!
So sad, affected mood for whole day... luckily get to see my dear from the airport, welcome back, you brighten my day. I'm seeing things more and more clearer so you do not have to remind me times and again.
Just for this year alone, just let me be run by emotion and spoiled... When i leave your life, thats when i start to fulfill the promise i made during the wish done a the temple...
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