Rationale kicks in, yet it remains so clear...

Dear, i no longer just go on emotion, as said, rationale is starting to kick in, and i'm able to see clearer. What and how i feel, do, react, say whenever i'm with you.

Its a fact that i can't deny that i really really love you. For what reason? I can't say so myself. How do i prove it? Through a stone way. How long will it last? I can't give you any promise but i wish it would be an eternity. How do i know? Emotion tells me so, my heart hurts like a knife went through it when sometimes you just deliberately want to break my heart, it smiles every time i see you smile.

How about rationale? Its just so plain obvious i'm so happy and always feel warmth whenever i'm with you, no matter what we do, or even when we are doing nothing. Whenever i see your gloomy face, didn't you realized that i will generally look down and don't speak at all because i will become so worried for you, so sad that my heart cries when you look sad or even when you cry. But whenever you are laughing heartily or just a gentle sweet smile or a playful one, i will smile so naturally, don't you find it charming? =P

And also, i feel so comfy when i slept at your bed earlier, its an undeniable fact that that comfort comes from that i know you are just beside me, maybe even looking at me.

I know what my expectations are. Dear, i just wish i can look at you every time you are sleeping, every time you are smiling, i will smile brightly just so normally... And all i want to do is just to hug you to sleep, putting my hand on your face and the other around your waist.

Kissing is not as important as i thought it will be, all i long for is your hug, your touch as i hug and touch you.

Even though there is not any possibility that i will be the end of your life, at least what i hope i can do is to be an important chapter of your life. What are you to me now? You are the most important chapter of my life, and i'm quite sure it will remains that way. But will you be the end of my life?

5 days... how do i survive...