Working, assignments, projects continuously have taken their tolls on me... feeling so shagged and tired... Just don't feel like working anymore today during work...
Just went on to sms my friends out for dinner and supper to try and relax and hang out, chill and have fun, to relieve some stress and some shagginess.
Then suddenly, i receive the most important news i have been waiting for 3 days... My leave for Saturday is approved! Now i can go and receive you at the airport dear, you might say its only for a few hours, but i can't wait that long, even a single minute is too much =P
Thank you Anh for taking some time out of your busy schedule of studying to have dinner with me at Sakae Sushi even though your full, but chatting with you really made my day worthwhile ^.^
Thank you Joey, my closest buddy for treating to cocktail for supper, hohoho. You came with a motive, to ask me help He Quan with his work and most importantly to help you with TMac right? Whahahahaha. I know you sia.
Thank you both for making my day... most importantly, thank you news for coming at the right time.
Energized and looking forward to Saturday... 43 hours more and counting down...
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Haunted Camping Trip to Changi
A trip planned so long, spent so much yet turned out to be deviated from its original meaning.
Haunted trip is supposed to be going to haunted and eerie places to explore and feel the atmosphere. But it isn't the case all thanks to the government reconstructing everything.
First place to the old commando barrack is good, dark and eerie, would be better if we could enter but too bad area is off limits by the CCTV. Actually wanted to go through the pathway 99 towards old Changi Hospital but Tracy and Hanh are just too scared to go.
Then we reached the Changi Beach, omg, so many people and so much lights! When did this happen? Even the Changi Point looks so ordinary, turned out to be a recreational park already, omg! What's with the government?
Then later i suggested we go back to the pathway 99 to walk through it but with some hesitancy from both Tracy and Hanh, we decided to go later instead. Little did i realize that it was a bad choice! Because slowly after i fell asleep, it started to rain! And i didn't drill the pegs into the ground more solid, Joey and my tent actually almost went flying if we were not awake to sit on it to make it stay. Luckily i drilled the pegs more deep for the girls so their tent did not start to fly and with all the rain water coming in.
In the end, in view of heavier rain, i decided to just rush for the car, take the umbrellas and keep our tent first before fetching the girls out. But just when i throw the stuffs in our tent into a nearby shelter, Hanh actually cried for toilet!! =.= No choice, can't give Joey more accurate instruction, i had to bring Hanh out without her shoes and bring her to the toilet. Super windy, super cold, my poor Hanh has to walk so long a distance without her shoes on, but i get to hug her all the way so... it was a conflicting feeling =P
Then i went back for Joey, he actually brought the tent along behind me! What the??!! I just show him the way before going back for Tracy. I took everything from her tent and asked Joey to keep the 2nd tent while i brought her back to the car. Then i went to find Hanh and brought her to the car as well. Then Joey still had not keep the 2nd tent yet! I have to go and keep it. Hey Joey, are you sure you were from NCC and as a cadet officer? I'm so glad i still kept my campcraft skills!
After we managed to keep all the stuffs into the car, my dear actually forced me to change out of my wet shirt. I had to change into the shirt Tracy brought, omg, it was so funny and she took pictures of it, hopefully she will honor her promise not to show it to anyone else xD
We had our breakfast at the Changi Village before heading back home. Although the haunted trip isn't so haunted and successful, it was nonetheless considered a successful camping trip since the girls really enjoyed the tents and the rain.
Next time, no excuse, it will be camping right in the middle of CCK Cemetry >:)
Haunted trip is supposed to be going to haunted and eerie places to explore and feel the atmosphere. But it isn't the case all thanks to the government reconstructing everything.
First place to the old commando barrack is good, dark and eerie, would be better if we could enter but too bad area is off limits by the CCTV. Actually wanted to go through the pathway 99 towards old Changi Hospital but Tracy and Hanh are just too scared to go.
Then we reached the Changi Beach, omg, so many people and so much lights! When did this happen? Even the Changi Point looks so ordinary, turned out to be a recreational park already, omg! What's with the government?
Then later i suggested we go back to the pathway 99 to walk through it but with some hesitancy from both Tracy and Hanh, we decided to go later instead. Little did i realize that it was a bad choice! Because slowly after i fell asleep, it started to rain! And i didn't drill the pegs into the ground more solid, Joey and my tent actually almost went flying if we were not awake to sit on it to make it stay. Luckily i drilled the pegs more deep for the girls so their tent did not start to fly and with all the rain water coming in.
In the end, in view of heavier rain, i decided to just rush for the car, take the umbrellas and keep our tent first before fetching the girls out. But just when i throw the stuffs in our tent into a nearby shelter, Hanh actually cried for toilet!! =.= No choice, can't give Joey more accurate instruction, i had to bring Hanh out without her shoes and bring her to the toilet. Super windy, super cold, my poor Hanh has to walk so long a distance without her shoes on, but i get to hug her all the way so... it was a conflicting feeling =P
Then i went back for Joey, he actually brought the tent along behind me! What the??!! I just show him the way before going back for Tracy. I took everything from her tent and asked Joey to keep the 2nd tent while i brought her back to the car. Then i went to find Hanh and brought her to the car as well. Then Joey still had not keep the 2nd tent yet! I have to go and keep it. Hey Joey, are you sure you were from NCC and as a cadet officer? I'm so glad i still kept my campcraft skills!
After we managed to keep all the stuffs into the car, my dear actually forced me to change out of my wet shirt. I had to change into the shirt Tracy brought, omg, it was so funny and she took pictures of it, hopefully she will honor her promise not to show it to anyone else xD
We had our breakfast at the Changi Village before heading back home. Although the haunted trip isn't so haunted and successful, it was nonetheless considered a successful camping trip since the girls really enjoyed the tents and the rain.
Next time, no excuse, it will be camping right in the middle of CCK Cemetry >:)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Temple Wish
Before you left for Vietnam, you asked me what my wish was when i wrote it down in the temple. There i knew you read my blog.
But i will still not tell you what was my wish, no way i will tell you until the time is ripe, else you will really be angry with me, its a really selfless wish for you, my family and friends, only thing bad in there is for me.
When the condition is right... please do take the effort to find it... it is just right next to yours... What the condition is though i can't say.
Maybe i will write it down somewhere to save you the effort but i can't remember totally each and every exact words i wrote, as long as the meaning is there. It will still be in mandarin so please take the effort decipher it, if i matter even a single bit to you...
But i will still not tell you what was my wish, no way i will tell you until the time is ripe, else you will really be angry with me, its a really selfless wish for you, my family and friends, only thing bad in there is for me.
When the condition is right... please do take the effort to find it... it is just right next to yours... What the condition is though i can't say.
Maybe i will write it down somewhere to save you the effort but i can't remember totally each and every exact words i wrote, as long as the meaning is there. It will still be in mandarin so please take the effort decipher it, if i matter even a single bit to you...
Missing you...
I'm so sorry that you saw the weak Aaron when i sent you back to Vietnam, I just can't hide the fact that I'm so sad and that i can't stop the tears from flowing... You know that my expressions always betray my feeling, they are too obvious :((
I was expecting you to touch down at 2.45pm and had been anxiously monitoring my hand phone as the battery is going flat anytime soon, i managed to rush home by 3.30pm and was already expecting your call anytime. I quickly put my hand phone to charge, and laid on my bed waiting, rolling about, so unease because I'm so worried why you still didn't call. After seeing your sms at 4.30pm, i managed to ease my mind and get to sleep, but still i was expecting a call xD
Even as i write this now, I'm still listening to the song that you have recorded for me... Thanks so much dear, it helps a lot to listen to your voice as i miss you. Please do not worry about me, i will still take good care of myself, though this is really a super busy week for me as there are a lot of tasks, projects, assignments, jobs, exams that i really need to clear. As such, i may not have enough sleep, but i won't let myself die of torture, so don't worry. You also don't have to come online just to meet/chat with me as well, i promise i will be fine, trust me.
Luckily, they will all be cleared by the time you come back. I know i said i will only meet you on Sunday after you rest enough, but i really miss you so much that i already tried applying for leave on Saturday so that I can go and pick you up at the airport and see you as soon as possible.
Please enjoy your time with your family and friends back at Vietnam as much as possible in the 5 short days that you are spending over there.
Missing you... Will you be surprised when you see me at the airport? =)
I was expecting you to touch down at 2.45pm and had been anxiously monitoring my hand phone as the battery is going flat anytime soon, i managed to rush home by 3.30pm and was already expecting your call anytime. I quickly put my hand phone to charge, and laid on my bed waiting, rolling about, so unease because I'm so worried why you still didn't call. After seeing your sms at 4.30pm, i managed to ease my mind and get to sleep, but still i was expecting a call xD
Even as i write this now, I'm still listening to the song that you have recorded for me... Thanks so much dear, it helps a lot to listen to your voice as i miss you. Please do not worry about me, i will still take good care of myself, though this is really a super busy week for me as there are a lot of tasks, projects, assignments, jobs, exams that i really need to clear. As such, i may not have enough sleep, but i won't let myself die of torture, so don't worry. You also don't have to come online just to meet/chat with me as well, i promise i will be fine, trust me.
Luckily, they will all be cleared by the time you come back. I know i said i will only meet you on Sunday after you rest enough, but i really miss you so much that i already tried applying for leave on Saturday so that I can go and pick you up at the airport and see you as soon as possible.
Please enjoy your time with your family and friends back at Vietnam as much as possible in the 5 short days that you are spending over there.
Missing you... Will you be surprised when you see me at the airport? =)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Rationale kicks in, yet it remains so clear...
Dear, i no longer just go on emotion, as said, rationale is starting to kick in, and i'm able to see clearer. What and how i feel, do, react, say whenever i'm with you.
Its a fact that i can't deny that i really really love you. For what reason? I can't say so myself. How do i prove it? Through a stone way. How long will it last? I can't give you any promise but i wish it would be an eternity. How do i know? Emotion tells me so, my heart hurts like a knife went through it when sometimes you just deliberately want to break my heart, it smiles every time i see you smile.
How about rationale? Its just so plain obvious i'm so happy and always feel warmth whenever i'm with you, no matter what we do, or even when we are doing nothing. Whenever i see your gloomy face, didn't you realized that i will generally look down and don't speak at all because i will become so worried for you, so sad that my heart cries when you look sad or even when you cry. But whenever you are laughing heartily or just a gentle sweet smile or a playful one, i will smile so naturally, don't you find it charming? =P
And also, i feel so comfy when i slept at your bed earlier, its an undeniable fact that that comfort comes from that i know you are just beside me, maybe even looking at me.
I know what my expectations are. Dear, i just wish i can look at you every time you are sleeping, every time you are smiling, i will smile brightly just so normally... And all i want to do is just to hug you to sleep, putting my hand on your face and the other around your waist.
Kissing is not as important as i thought it will be, all i long for is your hug, your touch as i hug and touch you.
Even though there is not any possibility that i will be the end of your life, at least what i hope i can do is to be an important chapter of your life. What are you to me now? You are the most important chapter of my life, and i'm quite sure it will remains that way. But will you be the end of my life?
5 days... how do i survive...
Its a fact that i can't deny that i really really love you. For what reason? I can't say so myself. How do i prove it? Through a stone way. How long will it last? I can't give you any promise but i wish it would be an eternity. How do i know? Emotion tells me so, my heart hurts like a knife went through it when sometimes you just deliberately want to break my heart, it smiles every time i see you smile.
How about rationale? Its just so plain obvious i'm so happy and always feel warmth whenever i'm with you, no matter what we do, or even when we are doing nothing. Whenever i see your gloomy face, didn't you realized that i will generally look down and don't speak at all because i will become so worried for you, so sad that my heart cries when you look sad or even when you cry. But whenever you are laughing heartily or just a gentle sweet smile or a playful one, i will smile so naturally, don't you find it charming? =P
And also, i feel so comfy when i slept at your bed earlier, its an undeniable fact that that comfort comes from that i know you are just beside me, maybe even looking at me.
I know what my expectations are. Dear, i just wish i can look at you every time you are sleeping, every time you are smiling, i will smile brightly just so normally... And all i want to do is just to hug you to sleep, putting my hand on your face and the other around your waist.
Kissing is not as important as i thought it will be, all i long for is your hug, your touch as i hug and touch you.
Even though there is not any possibility that i will be the end of your life, at least what i hope i can do is to be an important chapter of your life. What are you to me now? You are the most important chapter of my life, and i'm quite sure it will remains that way. But will you be the end of my life?
5 days... how do i survive...
P.S. I Love You
Really really touching show... How can someone love each other so much?
Jerry depicted by Gerard Butler, a typical Irish guy, is a loving husband.
Holly depicted by Hilary Swank plays the widow that is so traumatized by the death of Jerry.
But how can two person so different, argues so much yet still love each other so much? Jerry even though knew that he would be dead soon by the brain tumor, made plans by sending 10 messages to Holly throughout a whole year to help his wife get back to life on her 30th birthday.
It is really so touching to see how someone can know his loved one so much, writing down the message so into the mind of his wife, as though reading through her. Slowly bringing her through what they experienced and making her understand that everlasting is just a fairytale, the moment that they spent together is the moment she should cherish.
Though its a romantic movie, its still quite sad that these two loving couples can never be together. But the director adds in some humor as well so that the movie won't become too saddened or just too romantic, some very nice touch.
If i am able to, i would find this novel to read it. If you are with your loved ones, watch it with them, reflect onto yourself, do you really love him/her? What can you do for him/her under different circumstances?
"You are the end of my life, but i am just a chapter of yours..." quotes - Jerry
Rate: 9.0/10
Jerry depicted by Gerard Butler, a typical Irish guy, is a loving husband.
Holly depicted by Hilary Swank plays the widow that is so traumatized by the death of Jerry.
But how can two person so different, argues so much yet still love each other so much? Jerry even though knew that he would be dead soon by the brain tumor, made plans by sending 10 messages to Holly throughout a whole year to help his wife get back to life on her 30th birthday.
It is really so touching to see how someone can know his loved one so much, writing down the message so into the mind of his wife, as though reading through her. Slowly bringing her through what they experienced and making her understand that everlasting is just a fairytale, the moment that they spent together is the moment she should cherish.
Though its a romantic movie, its still quite sad that these two loving couples can never be together. But the director adds in some humor as well so that the movie won't become too saddened or just too romantic, some very nice touch.
If i am able to, i would find this novel to read it. If you are with your loved ones, watch it with them, reflect onto yourself, do you really love him/her? What can you do for him/her under different circumstances?
"You are the end of my life, but i am just a chapter of yours..." quotes - Jerry
Rate: 9.0/10
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Conflicting Conflicts
Dear, you might ask me why, i'm not going to tell you directly... But I'm posting it here, i know you do read my blog anyway... I just can't say it to you at that moment at that time.
I felt so sad that you are going back to Vietnam, i know i will miss you a lot, but i do understand your home sickness, that's why i encouraged you to go back. But deep down inside me, i'm actually really begging you to stay... Nonetheless, i understand, please do go back and enjoy yourself, cure your home sickness before you take on the finals, at least trust me on this one, i believe you won't do as well if you are suffering from home sickness.
I know i might have gave up some chances or might have even hurt you, made you sad or something tonight (or rather this early morning), i don't really mean to. You can't imagine how happy i am when you said you missed me, but somewhere deep inside me just tell me it can't be possible, why would you even miss me at all when we meet up so often? That's why i raised my doubts and you know i never lied to you and always say things straight forward directly. About the trip, i just don't want you to stay because you feel obliged with the promise towards me. I will feel so guilty about it if it is the reason that you don't want to go back to Vietnam as early.
I know i said i won't want to see you again until at least school restarts, but it is such a struggle to decide to say that to you. Deep down inside, i can tell you honestly i miss you so much every minute, and i can't imagine how much i will miss you when you go back to Vietnam. I'm just trying to see how i can cope without seeing you for a week, and i do realized that it will be such a torture, tell me dear, how am i going to cope without seeing you for 4 months?
Why am i always making you sleepy and home sicked? Maybe i shouldn't be appearing in your life at all? I'm so sorry, i will try to make myself go away, I'm not standing i know, but i will just make myself go away. I'm sorry if i will appear cold to you, if i will not answer your call, if i will not want to meet you. Please understand that it is my way to distance myself from you, i believe i have caused enough discomfort, enough trouble, enough headache for you already. Even though my heart will bleed so painfully, tell me if I'm doing the right thing? I really want your opinion on this, but i just can't seem to put it to you directly.
And do you still remember that time we went to the temple at Chinatown? If you are able to obtain what i wrote down in that charm, please find the effort to translate it once I'm out of your life. This is the least i can demand of you to do, as a last selfish effort.
I felt so sad that you are going back to Vietnam, i know i will miss you a lot, but i do understand your home sickness, that's why i encouraged you to go back. But deep down inside me, i'm actually really begging you to stay... Nonetheless, i understand, please do go back and enjoy yourself, cure your home sickness before you take on the finals, at least trust me on this one, i believe you won't do as well if you are suffering from home sickness.
I know i might have gave up some chances or might have even hurt you, made you sad or something tonight (or rather this early morning), i don't really mean to. You can't imagine how happy i am when you said you missed me, but somewhere deep inside me just tell me it can't be possible, why would you even miss me at all when we meet up so often? That's why i raised my doubts and you know i never lied to you and always say things straight forward directly. About the trip, i just don't want you to stay because you feel obliged with the promise towards me. I will feel so guilty about it if it is the reason that you don't want to go back to Vietnam as early.
I know i said i won't want to see you again until at least school restarts, but it is such a struggle to decide to say that to you. Deep down inside, i can tell you honestly i miss you so much every minute, and i can't imagine how much i will miss you when you go back to Vietnam. I'm just trying to see how i can cope without seeing you for a week, and i do realized that it will be such a torture, tell me dear, how am i going to cope without seeing you for 4 months?
Why am i always making you sleepy and home sicked? Maybe i shouldn't be appearing in your life at all? I'm so sorry, i will try to make myself go away, I'm not standing i know, but i will just make myself go away. I'm sorry if i will appear cold to you, if i will not answer your call, if i will not want to meet you. Please understand that it is my way to distance myself from you, i believe i have caused enough discomfort, enough trouble, enough headache for you already. Even though my heart will bleed so painfully, tell me if I'm doing the right thing? I really want your opinion on this, but i just can't seem to put it to you directly.
And do you still remember that time we went to the temple at Chinatown? If you are able to obtain what i wrote down in that charm, please find the effort to translate it once I'm out of your life. This is the least i can demand of you to do, as a last selfish effort.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy Valentines Day
Almost was caught unaware when you called and said that you wanted to go out on your own since i wasn't there yet...
I'm glad you like the roses, the bracelet and the dining place. I didn't know you would get drunk so easily since you said you are a good drinker xD
Tonight is an unforgettable night for many things, my first night spending with more than a friend, and seeing how funny you look when you are drunk, and of course when we are kissing each other instead of a one-way affair. Downside was when you cried, my heart always hurts terribly to see you cry.
Dear, i still can't promise you anything that i'm not confident of doing, i might still kiss you anyway, anytime, anywhere.
All in all, i just wish that you had a romantic, memorable night that you will remember for your life. =>
I'm glad you like the roses, the bracelet and the dining place. I didn't know you would get drunk so easily since you said you are a good drinker xD
Tonight is an unforgettable night for many things, my first night spending with more than a friend, and seeing how funny you look when you are drunk, and of course when we are kissing each other instead of a one-way affair. Downside was when you cried, my heart always hurts terribly to see you cry.
Dear, i still can't promise you anything that i'm not confident of doing, i might still kiss you anyway, anytime, anywhere.
All in all, i just wish that you had a romantic, memorable night that you will remember for your life. =>
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Pre-Valentines Preparation
Hee, dear i know you are at school now, that's why i'm only writing it now, don't want to let you know what i've prepared for you. =P
After the meeting in school, i rushed off to buy the flowers. I know i know, you said you don't want them because they are especially expensive in this period of time. But i got your meaning for the german phrase already: "Give Me Flowers". So, how can i not? Expensive you may ask. Normally yes it is considered expensive, but if it is for you, it is not. If i can only see your happy face smiling so widely, all is worth it, i would pay anything for your smiles.
I also bought a silver bracelet for you because i notice you don't wear any and the actual meaning of it in a selfish way is i want to tie you down... You might not like the design, i don't know... But i just want to give it to you, tie tie tie =P
Brotzeit, Bier Bar & Restaurant, it is a german restaurant in vivocity, i know you really like the german language and culture, though you may or may not like the food, i just want you to go to somewhere german in singapore, besides, it has a seaview =) The only regrets is that i made the reservation too late, only can go at 9.30pm, please don't be mad at me dear, huhu :((
You are so sweet yesterday dear, "this hug can be forever", if only the taxi didn't come in, i really really wish that time will stop there and then and i can hug you forever as you said. Anyway, the two kisses on the cheeks made up for it =D
After the meeting in school, i rushed off to buy the flowers. I know i know, you said you don't want them because they are especially expensive in this period of time. But i got your meaning for the german phrase already: "Give Me Flowers". So, how can i not? Expensive you may ask. Normally yes it is considered expensive, but if it is for you, it is not. If i can only see your happy face smiling so widely, all is worth it, i would pay anything for your smiles.
I also bought a silver bracelet for you because i notice you don't wear any and the actual meaning of it in a selfish way is i want to tie you down... You might not like the design, i don't know... But i just want to give it to you, tie tie tie =P
Brotzeit, Bier Bar & Restaurant, it is a german restaurant in vivocity, i know you really like the german language and culture, though you may or may not like the food, i just want you to go to somewhere german in singapore, besides, it has a seaview =) The only regrets is that i made the reservation too late, only can go at 9.30pm, please don't be mad at me dear, huhu :((
You are so sweet yesterday dear, "this hug can be forever", if only the taxi didn't come in, i really really wish that time will stop there and then and i can hug you forever as you said. Anyway, the two kisses on the cheeks made up for it =D
Monday, February 11, 2008
Food Poisoned
Argh... been vomiting and stomache the whole day... on Sunday, what a day to get so sick... that i've been lying down on the ground, and no strength to get up at all...
Dear, thank you, appreciate alot that you took time to cook porridge and bring it to my house when you should be studying... i'm really really touched! =)
Too bad you aren't free on Valentines Day, but i will make it up to you... Trying to make sure its a romantic night for both you and me =P
grrr... missing work and school for two days, do i like it? Maybe, but i hate feeling so weak and tired... my head spinning so much, i just wanna see you dear... =((
Dear, thank you, appreciate alot that you took time to cook porridge and bring it to my house when you should be studying... i'm really really touched! =)
Too bad you aren't free on Valentines Day, but i will make it up to you... Trying to make sure its a romantic night for both you and me =P
grrr... missing work and school for two days, do i like it? Maybe, but i hate feeling so weak and tired... my head spinning so much, i just wanna see you dear... =((
Showdown
I knew this day will come, as in my last post, i've got the feeling you will have a showdown with me...
What a Saturday it was... you met up with me, took a walk, and finally came true to whatever you wanted to said and had rehearsed for so long...
I'm so sorry if my answer was not what you really expected... It is a risk, a path i've chosen and i shall have no regrets over it, as you had mentioned earlier....
The regrets over not doing anything is much greater than the regrets over doing something, so i rather do that something, super big risk with a probability of 0.0000000000000001 of success.
Thanks for coming clean with everything and make clear of our relationship, the way we should go, react, etc.
:(( :(( :((
What a Saturday it was... you met up with me, took a walk, and finally came true to whatever you wanted to said and had rehearsed for so long...
I'm so sorry if my answer was not what you really expected... It is a risk, a path i've chosen and i shall have no regrets over it, as you had mentioned earlier....
The regrets over not doing anything is much greater than the regrets over doing something, so i rather do that something, super big risk with a probability of 0.0000000000000001 of success.
Thanks for coming clean with everything and make clear of our relationship, the way we should go, react, etc.
:(( :(( :((
Saturday, February 09, 2008
An unforgettable night...
First K...
First H..
Yesterday was the boldest night where i had built up alot of courage... it is truly an unforgettable night... i should have react, darn my shyness and lack of confident and courage...
I'll never forget yesterday... but truly i understand that it is a night that will never come again... I'll treasure it forever as i will for you...
It will remains the sweetest memory in my life... thank you... and goodbye...
First H..
Yesterday was the boldest night where i had built up alot of courage... it is truly an unforgettable night... i should have react, darn my shyness and lack of confident and courage...
I'll never forget yesterday... but truly i understand that it is a night that will never come again... I'll treasure it forever as i will for you...
It will remains the sweetest memory in my life... thank you... and goodbye...
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Nice quiet moments at Sentosa
Nice night spent with you at Sentosa, gazing at the stars, making wishes with the shooting star, enjoying the sea breeze and just relaxing on the sandy beach.
Best achievement is that you finally clear all the misunderstandings you had for me, and able to finally understand what i've been trying to say to you thus far.
This is what i felt most happy about, that you are finally able to clear your mind totally and no longer feel homesick anymore.
May all our wishes come true, may these nights though scarcely but still come frequently for us, for now, for the near future, for the future, for the infinite time ahead.
Best achievement is that you finally clear all the misunderstandings you had for me, and able to finally understand what i've been trying to say to you thus far.
This is what i felt most happy about, that you are finally able to clear your mind totally and no longer feel homesick anymore.
May all our wishes come true, may these nights though scarcely but still come frequently for us, for now, for the near future, for the future, for the infinite time ahead.
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Worried sick
Today is such a bad day, its all my fault, i shouldn't have kept you up so late and today your mood went all low... even became so home sick you cried so much and so sad...
My heart hurts terribly watching you cried so sadly yet there was nothing i could do to comfort you...
So what's with the skipping of the class and the quiz? Let alone 1%, even if its 10%, i would skip it just for you, because you are the main worries i have that i so love and concern about.
Dear, i understand this is a terrible period for you, i've decided my chinese new year is to be spent with you...
But for now, i gotta finish the stats assignment, haven't started yet and its due 1pm later!! Argh... but i never regret accompanying you all these while. So pls do not let sadness fill your heart any longer, i'll try to fill it with love and warmth.
My heart hurts terribly watching you cried so sadly yet there was nothing i could do to comfort you...
So what's with the skipping of the class and the quiz? Let alone 1%, even if its 10%, i would skip it just for you, because you are the main worries i have that i so love and concern about.
Dear, i understand this is a terrible period for you, i've decided my chinese new year is to be spent with you...
But for now, i gotta finish the stats assignment, haven't started yet and its due 1pm later!! Argh... but i never regret accompanying you all these while. So pls do not let sadness fill your heart any longer, i'll try to fill it with love and warmth.
failed to get full mark for OOAD!! Grr!!
ARGHHH, thought i would get full marks for this!
Turn out i miscalculated one question because i was too overly-confident and fell for the despicable trick laid by the cunning professors!
Grrr... next time i will have to curb this arrogance and start open my eyes wide and big to do it... no more silly careless loss of marks.
Turn out i miscalculated one question because i was too overly-confident and fell for the despicable trick laid by the cunning professors!
Grrr... next time i will have to curb this arrogance and start open my eyes wide and big to do it... no more silly careless loss of marks.
Monday, February 04, 2008
Mixed feelings
I did what's not supposed to be done and what i won't be doing normally.
But i still did it.
Nobody will understand this post, except for you and me.
Should i break the wall or should i not? Since the chance is that i might break the wall, i've decided i'll try my best to break the wall. Even if at the end the wall stands upright without a single crack, there won't be any resentment or regrets.
To regret not doing something is worse than regret doing something. Of course, to regret both not doing and doing something is the worse. So, i'll do it and though i might regret it, at least i don't regret not doing it few years down the road.
Whatever it will be, whether i succeed or not, i hope at least we remain the closest friends ever, no matter what will happens.
To you: There's really no needs to think so much, just let nature take its course. If it has to be, it has to be, if it doesn't mean to be, it will never be. So why control? =))
But i still did it.
Nobody will understand this post, except for you and me.
Should i break the wall or should i not? Since the chance is that i might break the wall, i've decided i'll try my best to break the wall. Even if at the end the wall stands upright without a single crack, there won't be any resentment or regrets.
To regret not doing something is worse than regret doing something. Of course, to regret both not doing and doing something is the worse. So, i'll do it and though i might regret it, at least i don't regret not doing it few years down the road.
Whatever it will be, whether i succeed or not, i hope at least we remain the closest friends ever, no matter what will happens.
To you: There's really no needs to think so much, just let nature take its course. If it has to be, it has to be, if it doesn't mean to be, it will never be. So why control? =))
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Friends
I believe...
There remains no hiding in front of true friends... If you have to think of what to say, what to do, what's right, what's wrong, what not to say, what not to do... where's the freedom? Without this freedom, normally, these are not considered as FRIENDS to you inside your heart as well.
True friends need no hiding, no concealing and definitely no conforming. True friends like you for being you and not trying to be someone else.
Just need to express myself more clearly... I'm not thinking of anything else when i do or say something because i mean it... If you are my friend, you should understand that when being with friend, i want this freedom... if not... why do i even want you as a friend? I'd rather put you inside my network list and make use of you when there's a need, right?
I am therefore i am, love me for who i am, hate me for who i am, true friends stand forever, acquaintances please step aside.
There remains no hiding in front of true friends... If you have to think of what to say, what to do, what's right, what's wrong, what not to say, what not to do... where's the freedom? Without this freedom, normally, these are not considered as FRIENDS to you inside your heart as well.
True friends need no hiding, no concealing and definitely no conforming. True friends like you for being you and not trying to be someone else.
Just need to express myself more clearly... I'm not thinking of anything else when i do or say something because i mean it... If you are my friend, you should understand that when being with friend, i want this freedom... if not... why do i even want you as a friend? I'd rather put you inside my network list and make use of you when there's a need, right?
I am therefore i am, love me for who i am, hate me for who i am, true friends stand forever, acquaintances please step aside.
Friday, February 01, 2008
Reconnecting with a Friend
Refer to this article - http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/friendship/articleOPRAH.aspx?cp-documentid=5779692
Meaningful article... been through it, been scared... never dared to take the risk... the last question is really really good... if anyone has the time should read through this article. =)
"It can be done if you are willing to open your heart and take the risk. Are you?"
I am trying my best to, but am i given a chance?
Meaningful article... been through it, been scared... never dared to take the risk... the last question is really really good... if anyone has the time should read through this article. =)
"It can be done if you are willing to open your heart and take the risk. Are you?"
I am trying my best to, but am i given a chance?
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